People often say that lovers are drawn to opposites.
But learning to live with a husband who seems to speak a different life language can bring deep pain.
I have been married for 30 years—and it has been rough and bumpy.
“How can I live like this anymore?” My husband once cried out after we fought.
Out of insecurity and wounds from my past, I demanded a lot of attention from him—a quiet loner who values his freedom and resists control.
Our conflicts would flare up depending on the tides of my emotions.
It often felt like I was the one rocking the boat, the one causing the waves.
And the blame seemed to fall on me, accused by my mind.
But I used to protest, “It’s not fair to say it’s all my fault.”
As a Chinese saying goes, “One hand cannot clap.” In other words, conflict is never one-sided.
Our children were saddened by our fights.
I felt hopeless, afraid I’d be abandoned—just like some men leave for someone “better.”
I thought if I could have fixed my husband, my marriage would have been no troubles.
But when my depressed life hit rock bottom, I couldn’t deny it anymore.
The true enemy was within—my corrupted thinking.
That was why I never felt secure.
Who am I? What is my value? Why was I born, and where am I going?
This life, I came to understand, is given by the Creator so we can figure out these questions.
It’s not just about existing, pursuing happiness and then returning to dust.
So I cried out to Jesus Christ, who died on the cross to bear my sins and curses.
I asked Him to give me a new life—His resurrected life.
About 15 years ago, a godly woman prayed for me.
Through that prayer, I experienced deliverance and healing.
Since then, I’ve begun to see Jesus as my true love.
I now walk through life learning from His wisdom.
The more I understand that God accepts me as I am, the more I’ve learned to accept myself.
And something miraculous happened when I started praying for my husband:
God’s love began to fill my heart, allowing me to love him for who he is.
In heaven, the reward is not for what we’ve done—but for how our character is formed through hardship.
Earthly happiness is temporary and often depends on circumstances.
But the children of God, holding onto the supernatural faith He gives, can choose joy—a joy not shaken by the world.
As a mother, I’ve finally grown stronger—
for myself and for my children.
Now I live with hope, knowing I can overcome struggles, because Jesus Christ is with me.
This prayer brings you to Jesus Christ—
He is welcoming you home.
Creator God, I admit I am a sinner. I need you to save me. If you didn’t come to find me, I would be lost forever. Thank you for sending your only son, Jesus Christ, to come to the world, and die for my sins on the cross and give me new life and eternal life. I want to open my heart and receive Jesus Christ as my Savior and the Lord. And I want to obey His teaching to be blessed in my life. And please teach me to be a blessing to the people in my life. I pray in Jesus Christ’s name. Amen.
He wants to begin a miraculous work in your life.
Give Him a chance. Give yourself a chance.
Because with God, nothing is impossible.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)