Category: Spiritual Learning

You were knitted with a spirit in your mother’s womb, 

Which was created by God embedding your identity.

However, after you came to this world, with flesh and blood,

Your spirit, like a lamp, goes dark without light while functioning in the material world.

Until your spirit is awaken by the Holy Spirit,

Through listening to the truth in the Bible.

Like the oil is poured in and the Holy Spirit’s fire ignites your lamp,

Your mind which has been shaped by worldly values is enlightened to see the unseen God.

Then your mind confesses the inner disorder shaken by the Truth,

When your soul encounters the Author of the Truth of Jesus Christ,

And your will repents for the lies you believe.

Finally your soul is reordered according to your true identity, 

Which is transformed by the Holy Spirit,

In your awakened and reborn spirit through faith in the Savior.

This is your true identity restored,

Not by the mind, or changing your physical body,

But by the spirit,

You will live,

Freely and abundantly.

But when God, who set me apart from my mother’s womb and called me by his grace, was pleased  to reveal his Son in me… (Galatians 1:15-16a)

《你真實身份的恢復》

你在母腹中被精心編織，
靈是與生俱來的，
那是神創造的，並且將你的身份嵌入其中。
然而，當你帶著血肉之軀來到這個世界，
你的靈就像燈一樣，在物質世界中運作，卻失去了光，陷入黑暗。

直到有一天，你的靈被聖靈喚醒，
透過聆聽聖經中的真理，
就如同油被倒入，聖靈的火點燃了你的燈，
你那被世俗價值觀塑造的心思被光照，能看見那看不見的上帝。

於是你的心承認那因真理而震動的內在混亂，
當你的靈魂遇見真理的源頭——耶穌基督，
你的意志為你曾相信的謊言而悔改。

最終，你的靈魂按照你真實的身份重生，
藉著聖靈的更新轉化，
在你被喚醒、重生的靈中，因信靠救主而活。

這，就是你真實身份的恢復。
不是靠思想、也不是靠肉體的改變，
而是靠著靈，
你要活著，
自由且豐盛。

然而那把我從母腹裡分別出來、又施恩召我的神，既然樂意將他兒子啟示在我心裡…（加拉太書1:15-16a）

People often say that lovers are drawn to opposites.
But learning to live with a husband who seems to speak a different life language can bring deep pain.

I have been married for 30 years—and it has been rough and bumpy.
“How can I live like this anymore?” My husband once cried out after we fought.

Out of insecurity and wounds from my past, I demanded a lot of attention from him—a quiet loner who values his freedom and resists control.
Our conflicts would flare up depending on the tides of my emotions.

It often felt like I was the one rocking the boat, the one causing the waves.
And the blame seemed to fall on me, accused by my mind.

But I used to protest, “It’s not fair to say it’s all my fault.”
As a Chinese saying goes, “One hand cannot clap.” In other words, conflict is never one-sided.

Our children were saddened by our fights.
I felt hopeless, afraid I’d be abandoned—just like some men leave for someone “better.”
I thought if I could have fixed my husband, my marriage would have been no troubles.

But when my depressed life hit rock bottom, I couldn’t deny it anymore.
The true enemy was within—my corrupted thinking.
That was why I never felt secure.

Who am I? What is my value? Why was I born, and where am I going?
This life, I came to understand, is given by the Creator so we can figure out these questions.
It’s not just about existing, pursuing happiness and then returning to dust.

So I cried out to Jesus Christ, who died on the cross to bear my sins and curses.
I asked Him to give me a new life—His resurrected life.

About 15 years ago, a godly woman prayed for me.
Through that prayer, I experienced deliverance and healing.

Since then, I’ve begun to see Jesus as my true love.
I now walk through life learning from His wisdom.

The more I understand that God accepts me as I am, the more I’ve learned to accept myself.
And something miraculous happened when I started praying for my husband:
God’s love began to fill my heart, allowing me to love him for who he is.

In heaven, the reward is not for what we’ve done—but for how our character is formed through hardship.

Earthly happiness is temporary and often depends on circumstances.
But the children of God, holding onto the supernatural faith He gives, can choose joy—a joy not shaken by the world.

As a mother, I’ve finally grown stronger—
for myself and for my children.

Now I live with hope, knowing I can overcome struggles, because Jesus Christ is with me.

This prayer brings you to Jesus Christ—
He is welcoming you home.

Creator God, I admit I am a sinner. I need you to save me. If you didn’t come to find me, I would be lost forever. Thank you for sending your only son, Jesus Christ, to come to the world, and die for my sins on the cross and give me new life and eternal life. I want to open my heart and receive Jesus Christ as my Savior and the Lord. And I want to obey His teaching to be blessed in my life. And please teach me to be a blessing to the people in my life. I pray in Jesus Christ’s name. Amen.

He wants to begin a miraculous work in your life.
Give Him a chance. Give yourself a chance.
Because with God, nothing is impossible.

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)

Abba means that I want Your smell in Hebrew language.

Abba reveals Himself to my 5 senses.

My emotion in the broken heart needs to be healed

So that I can sense Him.

Let my head of mind get lower than my heart.

Then I know,

Abba knows the way to love me the best.

I will not limit myself to know Him as far as I know my earthly father,

For Abba is far greater beyond my earthly father.

Abba, may you enlarge my knowledge, feeling about you.

天父知道如何正確地愛他的兒子，

所以我要認識他，不拘泥於地上父親的瞭解程度，

因為即便地上的父親有天父的形象，

但天父的偉大遠超過地上的父親。

主啊，求您擴張我對您的認識。

For preparing cooking lunch for the church, I went to Costco in the afternoon. While I pushed my shopping cart, “You know what I found?” I heard a male voice nearby. After he repeated speaking that words for three times, I finally lifted up my face to look for that voice after grabbing a bag of apples.

“I think everyone needs a prayer.” the man was speaking to me with his eyes focused on me.

I found that my eyes were fixed on his face because he drew my full attention.

“Is he the Christian preacher on Youtube?” I wondered in my mind because I have listened to his preaching on the internet.

Or maybe he just saw the words “Pray more, worry less” written on my T-shirt and only responded to that message. I wondered again in my mind.

“Oh, thank you.” I felt a little bit shy to respond to him because he took time to approach me and talked to me, a total stranger to him.

I walked away but started pondering, “is it possible he traveled from Texas to Minnesota?” “Is he praying for people and I saw his spirit?” I recalled he shared his testimony in one episode that someone he prayed for saw him appearing in front of her.

Or, do I see the angel of God?

And I wish that I should have asked him more about what he meant by “Everyone needs a prayer.”

Just then, someone called me on the aisle of vitamin section. A couple who I used to know in the church came shopping. I remembered that I saw them last time in their house when they had a new born baby. And now the baby grows to be a 15-year-old. They told me that the whole family of four will have a short term mission trip to Puerto Rico. So, I prayed a blessing over them right there.

After a few days, I went on YouTube and left a message about this encounter to this preacher’s YouTube channel. A few minutes later, he responded to me with a message “God destined you for this time.” Is that a confirmation from my recent dream?

In my recent dream, I saw a young person staggering on the street. I tried to get his attention but he still walked weakly and aimlessly without noticing me. Then I saw a big yellow school bus rushing toward him and I didn’t dare to watch. So I closed my eyes tight but imagined what might happen. After that, I turned my head to the direction the bus passed by and opened my eyes. Just like I imagined, he was run over under the big wheels. I saw a person come to help him. And I saw myself kneeling down with deep sorrow and praying fervently for him.

Then I woke up from my dream. I said it to my husband and cried because I don’t know if that could have been anyone I know.

A few days later, I prayed with other mothers in the Moms In Prayer group about this. One lady prayed that I shall stop that bus next time. Her words awoke me as an epiphany of God. There could be a spiritual meaning about the bus as a demon and the young man as anyone who is lost and under evil attack.

“Amen! I shall open my eyes and command that evil attack to Stop through my prayer.” I agreed in my spirit. But I asked God again, “Oh, God, may I have that courage to stand in front of the weak to stop the evil attack.”

As I read this verse after a few days,

“Contend, O LORD, with those who contend with me; fight against those who fight against me.

Brandish spear and javelin against those who pursue me. Say to my soul, “I am your salvation.” (Psalm 35:1,3)

“It’s Me in you to speak and stop the evil.” I think that God answered my prayer. I just need to pray and let God speak through my prayer. And everyone needs a prayer because God wants to save them through the prayer from the followers of Jesus Christ.

May all the saints rise up to pray for the lost souls. And may those who are in a stumble of distress and depression or under any spiritual/emotional/mental/physical attacks come to Jesus Christ for salvation from the spiritual death to live until eternity. In Jesus Christ’s name. Amen.

PS:

A few hours after I finished this writing, an acquaintance called me and told me that she needed to cancel a meeting with me because she has been feeling dizzy and just got a doctor appointment. Oh, I seemed to see that she is staggering on the street of life.

So I prayed for her but I felt burdened by the evil thought: “how long will you be able to pray for her until she receives Jesus Christ?”

Thank God for reminding me to proclaim aloud: It’s Jesus Christ, who is worthy to bear our sins on the cross and His blood has washed her clean and His resurrection from the grave has redeemed her. My work is to speak His truth and His word shall come to be and save this lady’s soul. So, I don’t need to worry if I pray good enough or long enough to carry her sins. Instead, I proclaim the victory God has won for her through Jesus Christ!

I felt so relieved in assurance of victory after I proclaimed the truth. I know God also is training me to push back any evil lies while I am praying to His will.

Thank God for destining me for this time.

You can give critic about movies, food or a piece of art;

But never become a critic of God’s children,

Because the devil is doing all right without your opinion.

Above all, never become a critic of yourself

By condemning or accusing like using your hand to slap on your face.

If you are a reborn creature in Christ,

You don’t want to criticize God’s perfect handiwork.

Leave the job of discipline and growing to God’s hand,

Your job is to repent and turn to God for cleansing and transformation.

Critic of people is not your job. Don’t do it.

O, Judas Iscariot, it doesn’t need to be you,
To choose to betray Jesus by the temptation of worldly gain.
Your regret tells your sorrow of sin,
Your shame tells your conscience of guilt.
I wonder if Jesus chose you to be one of His disciples,
Not meant to trap you to fall,
But give you a chance to be saved.

O, Judas Iscariot, it doesn’t need to be you,
To kill yourself by the condemnation of the devil.
Look at your companion, Simon Peter.
He was in shame and guilt of denying Jesus for three times,
But why could he come to repent instead of regret?
Because Jesus prayed for him (Luke 22:32).
I wonder if Jesus prayed for you?
I believe Jesus did because He is the God of compassion.

O, Judas Iscariot, it doesn’t need to be you.
Jesus said that “woe to you who betrays the Son of Man!
It would be better for you if you had not been born (Matthew 26:24).
Was He mourning for you, who should not have been here to taste the bitterness of regret?
Has your Creator ever expected you to bear this shame of betrayal when you were created?
Wasn’t your mother joyful to greet you when you were born and rest in her arms?
I believe that Jesus still loves you till the end of your earthly life,
Nevertheless the devil deceived you to act upon the evil of killing yourself.

Even though your free will was allowed to make the wrong choice to intend to harm Jesus,
but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done to save many lives (Genesis 50:20).

O Judas, what if you chose to cry out to Jesus for help while you were drowning in the ocean of shame and guilt,
The Holy Spirit must honor your choice and raise His hand to drag you out of mire of distress,
So that you could be empowered to come to repent to the resurrected Jesus,
Who must be willing to wash you clean from within through and through,

Then, you would live and see His miraculous transformation on your heart through your belief:
God is good to forgive and love all sinners,
And delight in you as His holy child (Zephaniah 3:17),
When you are willing to drop your sorrow and open your heart to be comforted.
You shall be reborn by the power of the Holy Spirit:
The old has gone, the new creation has begun (2 Corinthians 5:17).

O, dear friend, if you feel despair in yourself like Judas Iscariot,
I pray for you to chose to be comforted by Jesus’ love and give yourself another chance,
Just continue to cry out, “Jesus Christ, help me and save me,”
For Jesus is kindly waiting for you to come to Him for salvation (Psalm 86:5-6).

O, dear friend, if you feel weak to leap by faith into Jesus Christ’s mighty arm,
I pray for you to be strengthened by Jesus’ promise to cast all your cares on Him,
For He promises to care for you (1 Peter 5:7).
The following has finished and assured:
Jesus’ death on the cross has replaced your hopelessness,
And Jesus, who has been resurrection out of the tomb,
Will revive your spirit to soar like an eagle again.
Jesus will lead you in the triumphal parade to His throne,
As His co-heir, royal priest and holy people, sitting besides Father God of eternity.

Today is the Day!
Choose to live, not die,
To proclaim what the Lord has done (Psalm 118:17).