When I Choose to Believe

When I Choose to Believe

Peter stood at the edge of the boat.
The wind was blowing,
and the waves were crashing against the side of the boat.

Far away,
he saw Jesus standing on the water.

“Come.”

Just one word.

Peter looked down at the boat beneath his feet,
then lifted his eyes toward the One who was calling him.

He did not know what would happen next.
He did not know whether the water would really hold him.

But he stepped out.

That step was not because
he understood everything.

It was because—
he chose to believe.

Perhaps real change in life
does not begin when we finally understand everything.

Perhaps it begins
when we are willing to take that first step.

Following Jesus
is not about trying hard to become a “good person.”

It is not about doing enough
to earn God’s approval.

Nor is it about using God
only when we need Him.

It is about choosing,
moment by moment,
to trust Him.

When fear tells me to step back,
I choose to move forward.

When disappointment tells me to give up,
I choose to take one more step.

When the voices of others tell me,
“You are not good enough,”
I choose to believe the voice that says,
“You are loved.”

One choice
ignites the next action.

One action
leads to the next choice.

Like a light turning on
in a dark runway—

one light,
then another,
then another…

A path that I could not see before
slowly begins to appear.

I may not know where the path ends,
but I can see the next step.

And so I begin to run.

I spread the wings of prayer,
lift my eyes above my circumstances,
and fly toward the sky.

I no longer have to desperately prove
that I am worthy of love.

I no longer have to exhaust myself
trying to please others,
always doing more,
producing more,
trying to become good enough.

Because I have received a gift
that I could never earn through my own effort.

Grace.

I am free to live.

I can respond to God’s voice.

And I can choose not to listen
to the voices that lead me
into fear, shame, and despair.

Like a bird hearing a warm and familiar voice
from far away—

it spreads its wings,
flies through the wind,
and moves toward the one who is calling.

It is not forced to fly.

No one is pushing it.

It flies because
it knows that voice.

This is freedom.


Today, neuroscience teaches us
that the human brain can change. (aka neuroplasticity)

When we repeatedly choose a new direction
and practice it again and again,
new neural pathways can gradually form.

It is like creating a new path
through a field where no one has ever walked.

The first time,
only a few blades of grass are bent.

The next time,
the grass begins to separate.

And after walking the same way again and again,
a path begins to appear.

Where there was no path before,
there is now a real road.

I am amazed
at the God who designed us this way.

No matter how long
we have walked in the wrong direction,
we can start all over again.

Even if yesterday’s version of me
was not the person I wanted to become,
today I can make a new choice.

I can change.

But then—

if our will can truly change our brains,
if our thoughts can change our actions,
if our choices can change our lives,

how do we explain
the deeper changes that happen
in the very depths of a human life?

Why is it that when we are
in our darkest moments,
someone prays for us,
and even though we don’t understand
what is happening,

something inside us
slowly begins to grow brighter?

Why can a single word of truth
break through walls of lies
that we have built around our hearts
for years?

Why is there sometimes a strength
that we did not create ourselves,
yet when we need it most,
quietly comes and holds us up?

Perhaps our brain
is only one part of who we are.

We are not merely bodies
that think, calculate, and make choices.

Deep within every human being
there is another dimension—
something our eyes cannot fully see.

A soul that longs for love,
searches for meaning,
and keeps asking questions
about eternity.

So if you have been searching for answers,
you don’t have to rush
to believe everything today.

Just stop for a moment.

Be still.

Listen.

Perhaps,
when your life becomes quiet enough,
you may hear a voice saying:

“Come.”

And perhaps all you need
is simply—

to take that first step.

Trust the God who gave you
your mind,
your will,
your soul,
and your life.

Perhaps you thought
you were searching for God.

But one day you may look back
and discover—

the One who had been searching for you
was God Himself.

God is not calling you simply to become a good person.
He is preparing you for His Kingdom,
revealing who He created you to be
and inviting you to live that identity out—
as His image is uniquely revealed in your life.

當我選擇相信

當我選擇相信

彼得站在船邊,
風正吹著,海浪拍打船身。
遠遠地,
他看見耶穌站在水面上。

「來吧。」

只是一句話。

彼得低頭看看腳下的船,
又抬頭看看那個呼喚他的人。

他不知道下一步會發生什麼,
也不知道水面是否真的能承受他的重量。

但他跨了出去。

那一腳,
不是因為他已經明白了一切,
而是因為——
他選擇相信。

也許人生真正的改變,
從來不是我們什麼都想通了以後才開始,
而是當我們願意跨出那一步。

跟隨耶穌,
不是努力做一個「好人」,
不是做很多事情來換取上帝的喜歡,
也不是在需要的時候利用神。

而是,在生命一個又一個的時刻,
我仍然可以選擇相信。

當恐懼叫我退後,
我選擇向前。

當失望叫我放棄,
我選擇再走一步。

當別人的聲音告訴我「你不夠好」,
我選擇相信那個說
「你是我所愛的」的聲音。

一個選擇,
點燃下一個行動。

一個行動,
又成為下一個選擇。

就像黑暗的房間裡,
一盞燈亮了,
接著第二盞,
第三盞……

原本看不見的路,
慢慢浮現。

我不知道終點在哪裡,
卻開始看見下一步。

於是,
我的生命開始奔跑。

我張開禱告的翅膀,
不再只是低頭看自己的困境,
而是抬起頭,
向著天空飛去。

我不再拼命證明自己值得被愛,
也不再為了討好誰,
不停地做、做、做,
直到自己筋疲力盡。

因為我已經領受了一份
不是靠努力賺來的禮物——
恩典。

我可以自由地活著。

我可以回應上帝的聲音,
也可以拒絕那些
讓我陷入恐懼、羞恥和絕望的聲音。

就像一隻鳥,
在遠方聽見熟悉的呼喚,
振動翅膀,
穿過風,
飛向呼喚牠的人。

不是因為牠被逼著飛,
而是因為——
牠知道那個聲音。

這就是自由。


今天的腦神經科學告訴我們,
人的大腦是可以改變的。

當我們一次又一次地選擇一個新的方向,
一次又一次地練習,
神經連結會重新建立。

就像一片從沒有人走過的草地。

第一次走過去,
只留下幾根被踩倒的草。

再走一次,
草開始分開。

再走一次,
路漸漸出現。

走得夠久,
原本沒有路的地方,
竟然真的成了一條路。

我驚嘆上帝的創造。

原來,
即使走錯了很久,
人仍然可以重新開始。

即使昨天的我不是我想成為的人,
今天仍然可以做一個新的選擇。

我可以改變。

可是,
如果人的意志真的可以改變大腦,
如果思想可以改變行動,
如果一次又一次的選擇可以改變人生——

那麼,
有些生命深處的改變,
又該怎麼解釋?

為什麼有人在我們最黑暗的時候為我們禱告,
我們自己都不知道發生了什麼,
心裡卻慢慢亮了起來?

為什麼一句話,
可以穿透一個人多年築起的牆?

為什麼有些力量,
不是我們自己想出來的,
卻在我們最需要的時候,
悄悄扶住了我們?

也許,
我們的腦只是我們的一部分。

我們不只是會思考、會計算、會選擇的肉身。

在每一個人的深處,
還有一個我們無法完全用眼睛看見的世界。

一個會渴望愛、
會尋找意義、
會向著永恆發問的靈魂。

所以,
如果你一直在尋找答案,
也許今天不必急著相信一切。

只要停下來,
聽一聽。

也許在你生命最安靜的時候,
你會聽見一個聲音:

「來吧。」

而你所需要的,
也許只是——

跨出那一步。

相信那位賜給你思想、意志、靈魂和生命的神。

也許你會發現,
你以為自己是在尋找神,
其實一路上,
是祂一直在尋找你。

上帝不是呼召你,
拼命努力成為一個「好人」。

祂正在預備你,進入祂的國度;
祂要你活出祂創造你原本的樣子。

當你一步一步走在祂的帶領中,
祂親自揭開你生命的深處,
讓你看見:

原來,祂的形像,
一直都在你裡面,
並且要透過你獨特的生命,
被活出來。

The True Meaning of Being Me

The old me—
a soul wrapped in flesh,
bent beneath the weight of sinful nature.

The law stood above me
like a mountain of earth,
pressing upon my head,
until I forgot how to stand.

Yet Christ, in compassion, came.
He took upon Himself
the crushing burden of the law,
and carried it to the cross.

By the faith He gave,
I was joined with Him.
Crucified with Christ,
my old self died—
fallen beneath the grave,
its chains were off and buried in silence.

And there, above the law,
Jesus became my fulfillment,
my shelter,
my nourishment in death.

Then something forgotten awakened.
My true identity was restored—
not earned,
not rebuilt,
but remembered:

A child of God,
fearfully and wonderfully made
from the beginning.

Now the true me is born again—
not of flesh,
but of Spirit.

Like a green shoot
breaking through hardened ground,
I rise above the law
and stand upon the Solid Rock.

The new me receives
a renewed spirit,
a heart of flesh,
alive to His touch.

I can hear the conviction of the Holy Spirit,
and feel His love—
as Christ breathes
His own life into me.

Now freedom lives in my heart.
Moment by moment,
I am given a choice:
To walk in the flesh
and descend again
into old roads and worldly dust—
Or to walk in the Spirit,
abiding with Him,
climbing upward
in the way of God.

Not because I am divided,
not because I have two selves—
But because Love dwelling in me grants freedom of living.

I may choose to wear old garments:
the slave’s torn clothing,
the role shaped by fear and bondage.

Or I may choose to wear the royal robe:
the garment of a child of God,
walking beside the Father.

And each time
the true me chooses Him,
the grip of darkness loosens.

Each step of surrender
becomes a step into freedom,
until one day
the true me rests fully
in His perfect and divine nature.

And there—
I finally become
who I was created to be.

This is the true meaning of being me.
<The end>

本当の私の意味
古い私は——
肉に包まれた魂、
罪の性質の重みの下に身をかがめていた。

律法は私の上に立ち、
まるで土の山のように
頭を押しつぶし、
私は立ち方さえ忘れてしまった。
けれど、キリストは憐れみによって来てくださった。
律法の押し潰す重荷を
ご自身の上に負い、
十字架へと運ばれた。
主が与えてくださった信仰によって、
私はキリストと結ばれた。
キリストと共に十字架につけられ、
古い私は死んだ——
墓の下へと倒れ、
その鎖は壊され静けさの中に埋められた。

そしてそこ、律法の上に、
イエスは私の完成となり、
私の避け所となり、
死の中にあって私を養う方となった。

その時、
忘れられていた何かが目を覚ました。
本当の私の姿が回復された——
勝ち取ったのではなく、
作り直されたのでもなく、
思い出されたのだ。
神の子として。
初めから
畏れ深く、驚くほど素晴らしく造られた存在として。

今、本当の私は新しく生まれた——
肉からではなく、
御霊から。
固く閉ざされた地を破って出る
緑の芽のように、
私は律法を超えて立ち上がり、
堅固な岩の上に立つ。
新しい私は受け取る。
新しくされた霊を、
柔らかな心を、
主の触れられる命を。
聖霊の示される確信を聞き、
その愛を感じる。
キリストが
ご自身の命を
私の内に吹き込んでくださるように。
今、自由が私の心に住んでいる。

一瞬一瞬、
私は選ぶことができる。
肉に従って歩み、
再び下へ降りて、
古い道と世の塵へ戻るのか——
それとも、
御霊に従って歩み、
主のうちに留まり、
神の道を上へ上へと進むのか。

それは私が分裂しているからではない。
二つの人格を持つからでもない——
しかし、私の内に住まわれる愛が、生きる自由を与えてくださるから。

私は古い衣を選ぶこともできる。
奴隷の破れた服、
恐れと束縛によって形作られた役割を。
あるいは、王の衣を選ぶこともできる。
神の子の衣をまとい、
父なる神のそばを歩くことを。
そして、本当の私が主を選ぶたびに、
闇の力は弱まっていく。

明け渡しの一歩一歩が、
自由への一歩となる。
やがていつの日か、
本当の私は完全に安らぎ、
神の完全で聖なる性質の中に生きる。
そしてそこで——
私はついに、
創られた本来の私になる。
これこそが、
私であることの
本当の意味。

信心的試煉

信心的試煉告訴我,自己的信心有多純粹,因為那本是上帝給的寶貝。

信心小如芥菜種,一樣有功效,因為那是連於上帝,傾倒大能的管道。

試煉是聖靈的風吹開因邈遠時空、創傷壓抑而蒙上淡景的黑暗迷霧,

試煉也是聖靈的火燒熔因心底罪疚、原生舊習侵蝕形成的頑固鐵鏽。

何等感恩:試煉拂去惡者謊言的迷霧後,使聖徒信心更加清澈,

如同平靜安息的水面映照出天空的榮耀,以及上帝內住的美麗形象。

Lament for the Needy

A pure white java sparrow flew onto the balcony.
    Father caught it and placed it, for a time, in a birdcage.
    Inside already lived two lovebirds.
    He planned to buy a new home for the sparrow later.

After a while, I heard piercing cries.
  Ah—why was this sparrow so full of sorrow?

Woe— the sparrow laid motionless, pecked, bright red blood covering its head.

The Heavenly Father God, who created them all— 

    How deeply His heart must grieve, as anger rose within me.

All were made by the Lord;
Why such ruthless harm to one another?

I mournfully pray and hope for the day God has promised:

    “The wolf and the lamb will feed together, and the lion will eat straw like the ox, and dust will be the serpent’s food. They will neither harm nor destroy on all my holy mountain.” (Isaiah 65:25)

 

一隻白紋鳥飛到陽台裡,

父親抓到了,把他暫時放在鳥籠裡。

裡面已經有兩隻牡丹鳥住在那裡。

父親等會就去買新家給白紋鳥。

我在家裡聽見淒厲的叫聲,

啊,這白紋鳥為何如此傷心?

當我看見,

滿頭鮮血的白紋鳥,躺平在鳥籠底,

我的悲怒從心底燒起。

這白紋鳥被原住民牡丹鳥看為入侵者,

孤立無援地死去,

創造他們的天父上帝,

心底何等傷心:

本是主所造,相煎何太急?

我衷心祈禱著上帝應許的那一天來到:

豺 狼 必 與 羊 羔 同 食 ; 獅 子 必 吃 草 與 牛 一 樣 ; 塵 土 必 作 蛇 的 食 物 。 在 我 聖 山 的 遍 處 , 這 一 切 都 不 傷 人 , 不 害 物 。 這 是 耶 和 華 說 的 。(以賽亞書65:25)

Be still

害怕被拒絕導致自我拒絕,導致保護自己,導致defend for self。

為何要把人的沉默看成拒絕呢?主啊,請您原諒我相信這個謊言。謝謝您原諒我。

我奉拿撒勒人主耶穌基督的名,斥責命令綑綁這些惡靈離開我,命令牠下到陰間死到火湖裡,不准在我裡面旁邊有任何轄制地位。

我宣告我是被天父上帝、主耶穌基督接納的,我也接納自己,我有主耶穌是我的保護,他會為我申冤,所以我安靜等候主。

Be still and know He is God.

1 Corinthians 13:7 AMP

Love bears all things [regardless of what comes],

believes all things [looking for the best in each one],

hopes all things [remaining steadfast during difficult times], 

endures all things [without weakening]

gain altitude against wind

The wind coms like a breeze,

For a bird flying with joy.

When the enemy comes like hurricane,

The bird confronts and extends its wings,

To gain altitude and overrun the turbulence.

So is my spirit of faith in Jesus Christ of Nazarene,

Never turn back but run forward against the wind,

To gain higher perspective of God,

And overtop my enemies,

For receiving the victory God has commands for me.

患難中的覺悟

用自己喜歡的方式去待人,

我的回饋是主耶穌來的喜樂,

不是別人來的回報。

 

說自己良心平安的話,

作自己良心平安的事,

不去擔心別人怎麼看我,

是敬畏神,不怕人。

 

不要勉強自己和他人,

是尊重神的創造。

自由

我知道自由的滋味了,

把我背負不了的重擔交給上帝,

便得到了溫柔的勇氣,

能接納自己與他人,

像野豬一般衝向夢想,

活出自己原本被造的美好樣式。

人死過一次,就不再死第二次。