God intends you to be and you shall be

Judges 6, 7

God intended Gideon to be a mighty warrior and that’s who he shall be. I believe God knows Gideon so well that He understands his heart is for Him but he could be timid and wanted to be assured. I seem to see myself in Gideon: I know God has come through for me and given me the word of Spirit many times in the past. I don’t mean to forget but I feel my short-term memory loss seems to draw me down to feel so blurry to those experiences. However, God is so compassionate and understanding. He doesn’t rebuke me for my memory loss. But He constantly reinforces the learning through many different incidents. It seems that I am learning the same thing over and over again. However, my Master never rebukes me for my slowness to learn and remember. And He always encourages me by speaking to me through His Word. How blessed and thankful I am.

 

Today, I learn to give thanks quickly as the devil tries to steal it. Therefore, I won’t lose it and fall into the complaining pit. Then, I rebuke the spirit of complaining to go away and continue to give thanks for who God is and what God has done to me and others.

 

The first prayer meeting in BBC is coming on December 6. I have prayed about this to happen and God is showing me His work. I am so honored to be called and I am willing to follow. Today, God uses Judges 7 to tell me what He will do.

 

God told Gideon that he has too many men to go with him. There were 22,000 men. So God let those who fear go back (7:3). And there were still 10,000 men. God knows if we are too strong in flesh, we will boast about it and won’t give glory to God. Therefore, God wants us to deny our flesh first. Note: If we give glory to God, God will give us glory in heaven. It’s like my red envelope money is given to my mom, and she saves it for me for later.

 

God Himself called the people to go with Gideon (v4). Gideon took down the men to the water (v5) and God sifted them. Those who lapped with their hands to their mouths to drink was fewer than those who got down on their knees to drink. So, these 300 men were God’s chosen men to go with Gideon. In my opinion, these 300 men were the alert ones because they kept standing to watch out and did not bow down on their knees.

 

I learn that I can invite people to come to the prayer meeting. But only God will choose those whom shall go. 

 

God said to Gideon, “With the 300 men that lapped I will save you and give the Midianites into your hands.” (v7) This matched my praying experience. God not only calls me to pray, but He wants to save me and then lead me to fight against the devil and give me victory. The prayer time with God changes my life. It’s God’s power in the midst of my worship to Him.

 

God gave Gideon strategy to fight. During the night, the Lord said to Gideon, “Get up, go down against the camp, because I am going to give it into your hands.” (v 9) Meanwhile, God knows Gideon’s heart. So, He said to Gideon with understanding, “If you are afraid to attack, go down to the camp with your servant Purah and listen to what they are saying. Afterward, you will be encouraged to attack the camp.” (v10-11)

 

Praise God for He is all-knowing and compassionate God. God gives me prayer partners and give me instructions to fight and give me prophetic word from another saint in case I doubt what I heard. And “His ways are pleasant and His paths are peace.” (Proverbs 3:17) So, when my heart is joyful and peaceful, I am assured that God’s presence and His guidance.

 

Gideon did hear the dream of a man and its interpretation, knowing God has given the Midianites and the whole camp into his hands. (v14) Gideon worshipped God right away when he heard it. I shall do the same: when I hear God, I shall give Him praise, glory and thanksgiving because He is worthy of my worship. And worshipping God is the source of my strength to fight.

 

Gideon has the strategy from God: “Watch me, follow my lead.” (v17) Gideon and 100 men who were with him blew their trumpets. The other 200 men divided to 3 companies also blow theirs and shout, “For the Lord and for Gideon”. (v18)

 

When we pray, the Holy Spirit is our leader. Each of the saints who have the Holy Spirit in their deep, is calling to another in the roar of His waterfalls, as the rivers of living water flowing from within us (John 7:38). And God’s presence like waves and breakers have swept over us who pray. (Psalm 42:7). What a sight to shout and echo to one another. 

 

The power of the shouting scared the enemies (v21). Then, God caused the enemies through the camp to turn on each other with their swords. (v 22). God has done the impossible for Gideon and his men. Then, all other Israelites from Naphtali, Asher and all Manasseh were called out (v23) to pursue the Midianites. 

 

God wants to give all the saints His victory. Each of us take our positions to capture, kill and pursue the enemies like Gideon’s people (v24-25).

 

“The horse is made ready for the day of battle, but the victory rests with God. (Proverbs 21:31)” God trains us to fight and give us instructions to assure us to take the position faithfully, the rest is with God and God definitely wins because Jesus Christ has overcome the world and the devil. Therefore, we as mighty warriors have been more than conquerors. Praise God!

伊州托兒費用 直追大學學費 年逾1.3萬且不斷上升

美國托兒覺醒中心(Child Care Aware of America)一分年度統計報告顯示,伊利諾州的托兒費用與上大學學費相差無幾,該州托兒的年度費用超過1萬3000元,而且不斷上升。

這項名為「美國托兒高額費用」(The U.S. and the High Price of Child Care)的調查報告指出,伊州家庭、父母每年在每個5歲及以下的嬰幼兒身上所花費的年度平均托兒費為1萬3762元,比去年的1萬3413元增加了349元,增漲額與大學學費從去年的平均1萬3621元增加到1萬3970元一樣,只比伊州每年平均房屋貸款1萬9596元低了一些。

數據顯示,伊州家庭式的幼兒保母費平均一年要花8616元,比去年的8442元微幅增加。

根據此研究報告,在伊州育有一名嬰兒與一位4歲孩童的家庭,總共一年要花掉高達2萬4194元的托兒費用,而假使選擇家庭式保母照顧這兩個嬰幼兒,年度費用則為1萬6569元。

換算下來,養育一名嬰兒的夫妻,平均要把年收入的14%付給托兒所,而選擇家庭式保母則也要拿出8.8%的年收作為保母費;如果有嬰兒還有一個4歲孩子的話,家庭年收24.7%都需繳給托兒所,選家庭保母托兒,也會花掉16.9%給的年收。

育有一名子女的單親家庭或低收入戶顯然更辛苦,薪資的51.4%需支付托兒所費用,32.2%給家庭式保母;如果有兩個孩子單親或低收入戶,高達90.4%年收要作為托兒所費用,家庭保母也得花掉61.9%的年收入。

這份報告還提到,,全美有超過1250萬個5歲以下的兒童需要托育,其中的35%會送到托兒所。

托兒所的品質對孩童成長很重要,全美托兒覺醒網站上建議需要托兒的家庭可以向全美400多個「托兒資源和推薦」(Child Care Resource & Referral,簡稱CCR&R)詢問可負擔的托兒所,並建議父母查詢有政府的補助的托兒單位。

另外,聯邦政府針對貧戶、低收入戶的3到5歲的孩童提供「先起步」(Head Start)的補助,也有專門給殘障、代養、無家可歸等孩童的方案,更多托兒所與補助的資訊請上網:www.childcareaware.org/state/illinois。

God empowers us to do His will

Judges 6

Gideon was called by God and the angel said to him “The Lord is with you, mighty warrior.” (v12) In the midst of trial, I feel weak in my prayer without feeling fervent as I often do. I wonder if satan is luring me to doubt or God is testing my faith is depending on God alone, not on my own effort; however, God is gracious to speak to me through His Word. He calls me the mighty warrior. I accept it not out of my own pride, but out of knowing the God of faithfulness, who chose me and is keeping me.

 

At this moment, Gideon’s faith might not be ready yet spiritually. He asked God many questions like: if God is with us, why has all the sufferings happen to the people? Where are Your wonders that the ancestors told us? (v13)

The Lord said to him “Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of MIdian’s hand. Am I not sending you?” (v14) God has given me strength to pray against the enemies. God is merciful and compassionate to the lost souls so that He is sending me to intercede for them. If you ask where God is in the midst of people’s suffering, isn’t that God sending you to pray and act on the things you worry or the sins you hate or the people you care?

I see the sinful suffering among the saints in our church. Isn’t that God calls me to go to fight for them? Yes. Indeed. He is calling me to pray. But I worry about my weakness.

So did Gideon. He asked the Lord, “how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.” (v15)

Oh, I feel the same. I doubt if I can finish well the assignment God gives me as an intercessor and prayer warrior. 

The Lord answered to Gideon, “I will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites together.” (v16)

What an assurance God gives me that I am not fighting alone; because God will go with me and fight before me and surround me with His shield of grace.

Gideon wanted to offer the Lord sacrifice and the Lord was kind to wait for him. After the Lord showed him the sign that He is the real God, Gideon was terrified for he saw God face to face. (v22)

But the Lord is kind to tell him, “Peace! Do not be afraid. You are not going to die.” (v23) How kind our Lord is to comfort us when we know we are dust and sinners. However, Jesus once again covers our sins with His blood. 

The Lord asked Gideon to tear down his father’s altar to Baal and cut down the false god’s pole beside it (v25). God wants me to tear down the strongholds from my sins or the family and cut down the curses from the devil. God reveals to us the darkness and wants us to destroy them by our hands with a contrite heart. So far, Gideon still felt weak in his faith because he was afraid of his family and the men of the town, so he did it at night rather than in the daytime. (v27)

Then, God asked Gideon to build a proper kind of altar to the Lord and offer the sacrifice as a burnt offering. This burnt offering is the propitiation to appease God’s wrath. Now, my burnt offering is through Jesus Christ, who is the perfect and blemishless Lamb to make peace with God on behalf of my sins. I still constantly need to confess and repent when the Holy Spirit convicts me, and offer my body as a living sacrifice to God through Jesus Christ, who God only accepts.

The people in the town were mad at Gideon when they knew he tore down the idols. But God saved Gideon as He promised that “you are not going to die”. Gideon’s father Joash replied to the hostile crowd in a logical sense: If Baal really is a god, he can defend himself when someone breaks down his altar. (v31) So people waited for what would happen to Gideon.

Then, the Spirit of the Lord came upon Giden, and he blew a trumpet, summoning the Abiezrites to follow him (v34). He also sent messengers throughout Manasseh, calling them to arms, and also into Asher, Zebulun and Naphtali, so that they too went up to meet them (v35). Gideon was brave to let all his brothers and friends know he would lead to fight with them. When God’s Spirit empowers us, we are not afraid of what people think about us, or doubt if we have the ability to persuade people to fight with us. On the contrary, we will feel bold in the Spirit and feel honored to be called to fight with God. And we are humbled to call more saints to go with us because we believe it’s God’s will to recruit a great army of spiritual warriors to pray against the enemies in the spiritual battle. What a story to encourage us that we can do the same because God’s Spirit are empowering us to conquer the enemies to save God’s people.

After gathering people, before going to fight, Gideon asked God for His divine signs which are impossible for humans to rationalize (v36-40) and confirmed with him about God’s will. I feel I also need to remind myself to pause and pray for God’s will until I am assured. Don’t be hurried or lean on my own understanding even though I know God is leading me. I still need to take step by step each time by checking with God about the strategy and direction in the intercession for individual person and each prayer meeting.

Thank God for teaching me with Gideon’s story and encourage me with His own word. Although I can preach to myself about all the truth I learn and know from my past praying experience, I still desire to hear the great God’s encouragement because it’s the most intimate relationship I may have with the Lord through listening to Him and speaking to Him, which makes my heart joyful and satisfied.  Praise God for being kind to me. Thank God for His compassion on me and abundant grace to sustain me.

Take away: God can accomplish great things through us if we forget our weaknesses and follow his guidance.

明州快閃夜市 台灣美食飄「鄉」味

明尼亞波利斯市的擘餅咖啡(Breaking bread cafe)日前舉辦了一場明尼快閃夜市(Minne Market pop up),當天雖然寒冷飄雨,但室內擠滿嚐鮮的華洋民眾。召集人馮哲剛說當天晚上陸陸續續湧入400人參共襄盛舉。

當天五個攤位販賣的小吃美食,包括台式手工香腸、米腸、蚵仔煎、芒果剉冰、鹽酥雞、豬排、日式章魚燒、包子、珍珠奶茶等。

馮哲剛的攤位當天賣鹽酥雞和炸豬排,他高中從台灣來美國唸書時,因懷念家鄉菜而開始學做菜,也曾在餐廳打工,之後更成立便當(BianDang)網店,今年7月開始陸續籌辦了四次快閃賣便當活動,馮哲剛從明大管理和傳播系畢業,剛好運用所學來發展餐飲生意,以後希望在明大校園附近,開設台灣美食據點,同時兼當商業廚房提供給其他小網店共享經營。

司徒曉昉與另一半施建德經營的台灣香腸(Taiwanese sausages)工廠,製作純手工香腸,暢銷美國東西岸。

泰國來的魏福希(Wanlipa Wiphusit)現在是網店明包(MinnBun)的業主,她當天推出熊貓等可愛造型的包子,十分吸睛,口味有烤肉、蔬菜、芋頭、奶黃等。

輔導此次活動的飲食業諮詢商菲克斯(Ann Fix)說,她的丈夫來自武漢,因此她對亞洲夜市相當感興趣,她在明州曾有16年經營食品雜貨店的經驗,並透過Neon非營利組織來輔導雙城地區的小商家,對象有99%是非裔、亞裔、西班牙裔的移民。

菲克斯說,今年第三季共協助舉辦了66場快閃餐飲販賣活動,她給有志創業者提出建議,「不要孤軍奮鬥,要利用各樣免費資源,與同業聯絡,創新合作並分享經驗」。

馮哲剛對當晚大家的熱情參與印象深刻,計畫農曆春節時,再召集多個商家一起舉辦快閃飲食活動。

芝加哥公校學生數年年縮水 今秋再少6000多人

芝加哥公立學校的學生人數在全美排名第三,642所學校中共有35萬5156個學生,不過,芝公校每年入學人數正逐漸減少,最新統計顯示,今年秋季入學生減少逾6000人,與去年同期相比,降幅為1.7%。

芝加哥公立學校在10年前有40萬個學生,到今年為止已經減少了13%,過去8年,公校生人數持續下降,不過,今年降幅比前三年緩和不少。

數據顯示,2017年芝公校有37萬1382名學生,2016年有38萬1349人,而2011年跌幅最大,學生數從47萬500人驟減到40萬2681人,一年間少了6萬多學生。

芝加哥公立學校表示,學生人數降低原因,可能是少子化,加上移民人數減少。

芝加哥大部分學生都上公立學校,但有超過6萬學生選擇上特許(charter)、另類(alternative)或選項(options)學校。

入學人數減少的學校所在的區域,也是芝加哥人口外移較多的地區,由於學生人數縮減,2013年學區關閉了50間入學人數不足的學校。

芝公校學生族裔中,高達90%是有色人種,其中40%是黑人,46.6%是西班牙裔,白人僅占10.8%,另外有4.2%是亞裔。

今年高中共7萬3419人就讀,比去年的7萬3506人微減不到100人;11年級和12年級的學生比去年稍微增加。

特許學校(charter school)的入學人數比去年減少2.1%,從5萬4569人降到5萬3415人,少了1154人。小學入學人數減少最多,比去年少了2.3%,從20萬7032人降到20萬2239人。

芝加哥公立學校教育主任麥克代德(LaTanya McDade)說,今年幼稚園學生人數增加,因此明年的小學入學人數有希望提高。

學齡前學生也在增加中,因為今年有較多的四歲學生入學,增幅11%,共有1萬4300人。

明州美國購物中心促銷 「黑五」將送出20萬大禮

全美國最大規模的室內購物中心─明尼蘇達州「美國購物廣場」(Mall of America) 儘管感恩節當天不營業,但將在節後「黑色星期五」周末,預計送出超過20萬元的禮卡和獎品,鼓勵民眾過完感恩節後出門購物。

美國購物廣場今年將在黑色星期五當天早上5時開門營業,比平日開店時間提早5個小時,黑五當天從北邊入口處(north entrance)排隊進入的前200名顧客,將獲得10元到500元金額不等的禮卡;此外,黑五、周六、周日三天,美國購物廣場還會送出1萬個神秘刮刮樂,獎品包括音樂會門票、活動門票、旅館住宿、電子商品、設計師商品等禮物。

即日起到12月24日期間,只要在廣場內購物滿250元,可獲得免費玩廣場內的遊樂中心單日門票兩張。

由於假日人潮擁擠,美國購物廣場為了維護顧客安全,施行父母護送措施(parental escort policy),即日起要求民眾在周五、周六下午4時到打烊期間、感恩節周末和耶誕節期間(12月26日到31日)全天,及其他公告節日,凡16歲以下青少年必須要有持身分證件21歲以上成人陪伴才能入場。

該廣場29日、30日分別於早上8時、早上10時開門,有關購物廣場訊息,可查詢:www.mallofamerica.com。

除了「黑五」購物促銷外,明州全州75個州立公園與休閒區,在29日當天也將推出入場免費的優惠,這些原本要收取7元車輛進入費用的地區,黑五當天全部免費入場,詳細地點名單,可查詢:https://reurl.cc/gvYXpR。

芝購物中心縮短黑五營業時間 暢貨通宵開店

許多民眾期待的感恩節大餐後搶購活動,今年恐怕會因網路商店與手機軟體購物的普及,而使零售業縮短營業時間,根據統計,芝加哥地區包括北郊的香柏市伍德菲爾德室內購物中心(Woodfield Mall)、葛尼米爾購物中心(Gurnee Mills Mall)都縮短了感恩節到黑色星期五的開店時間。

伍德菲爾德室內購物中心宣布,今年該中心感恩節11月28日將在下午5時開店,營業到午夜12時關門,感恩節次日11月29日該中心早上6時開門,這座購物中心在去年和前年的感恩節,都從節日當天下午5時一直營業到隔天晚上10時,整整29個小時不打烊。

葛尼米爾購物中心今年感恩節將從晚上6時營業到午夜12時,29日開門時間為早上7時。

儘管部分購物中心縮短黑五營業時間,芝加哥兩大工廠折扣店仍將維持通宵開店,位於奧羅拉市(Aurora)的芝加哥暢貨中心(Chicago Premium Outlets)在感恩節當天將晚上6時一直營業到到隔天晚上10時;歐海爾機場旁的芝加哥流行暢貨中心(Chicago Fashion Outlet)則從感恩節當晚10時營運到29日晚間10時。

Bed Bath & Beyond生活百貨今年一反過去感恩節關門的營業方式,將從感恩節當天晚間5時開到12時,黑五則在早上6時開門,且推出所有商品25%折扣的優惠。

其他網路商店也推出多項折扣,包括亞瑪遜(Amazon)黑五特賣將從22日(周五)開始,如Kindle、Fire HD平版等電子產品有近五折優惠;好市多(Costco)的筆記型電腦、電視,即起有200元以上的折扣;柯爾百貨(Kohl)25日開始推出感恩優惠,包括Xbox遊戲機和其他電子產品有半價折扣;目標百貨(Target)的電視、電腦即起有近半價的折扣。

奧多比分析(Adobe Analytics)統計,2018年黑五網上購物比2017年增加23.6%,從手機下單購物更達20億,打破歷史紀錄。

籌學費 明州男大生跨州賣甜甜圈獲支持

「拜託不要再賣甜甜圈了」,受到許多消費者歡迎的Krispy Kreme甜甜圈公司,日前向明尼蘇達州全波林市(Champlin)的宮匝立茲(Jayson Gonzalez,21歲)小子喊話,請求他不要從愛阿華州去買該公司甜甜圈,再載到明州轉賣,因為「擔心長途車程影響產品質量」,不過,後來該公司了解他是為了籌措學費努力後,反而直接送他500盒甜甜圈。

今年5月宮匝立茲在臉書上開了一家名為「Krispy Kreme Run Minnesota」的網店,專門販售Krispy Kreme甜甜圈,他每個周末都會開四小時車,單趟約270哩距離外的愛阿華州克里夫市(Clive),只為了去那邊的Krispy Kreme收購大量甜甜圈。

這項生意進行到10月底時,Krispy Kreme向傑森喊話,告訴他必須停止配送該公司的甜甜圈,理由是考量他長途運送可能無法保證食物的品質,該公司這項消息公布後,反而讓宮匝立茲獲得許多聲援。

Krispy Kreme公司後來了解宮匝立茲是為籌措大學學費而努力配送甜甜圈賺錢,一改「禁售」態度,轉而允許他代理該公司的甜甜圈,同時還捐贈500盒甜甜圈,讓他重新開張。

先鋒報(Pioneer Press)報導,宮匝立茲一般交貨的地點在聖保羅市、普利孟司市(Plymouth)、小加拿大市(Little Canada)等約八個城市的目標百貨(Target)停車場。

目前其臉書商店有7000多個用戶追蹤,而且大都給了「態度友善、配送準時、甜甜圈像剛出爐一般新鮮」等正面評價。

有些客戶願意多花錢吃到回憶中的甜甜圈,有些客戶則想支持宮匝立茲上大學,他目前就讀於聖保羅市的大都會州立大學(Metropolitan State University)會計系,將來想當精算師。

這位甜甜圈小子開車一趟可載100盒甜甜圈,一打傳統口味的甜甜圈官網定價約9.49元,傑森可賣到17元,他最近想買輛箱型車擴展業務,預估可運送300盒甜甜圈。

明州爆今年成人染流感死亡首例 健康廳籲盡快打疫苗

明尼蘇達州健康廳(Department of Health)表示,該州已經出現今年第一個因流感死亡的成人病例,且類似流感症狀而住院的人數連續三周增加,由於年底為流感高峰期,還未施打流感疫苗,應盡快接受注射。

根據明州健康廳的統計,2017到2018年有2522人因流感住院,126人因流感併發症死亡,其中有兩名孩童。在長照中心有60人被流感傳染,381人在學校出現類似流感疾病。

疾病管制預防中心(Centers for Disease Control and Prevention,簡稱CDC)指出,接種疫苗後要兩周時間產生抗體,由於年底是流感傳染最快的季節,最好的預防方法是盡快接種疫苗。

CDC表示,2018到2019年的流感季節,是近10年以來,流感持續時間最久的一年,共達21周。流感季節從去年11月開始,最高峰到今年2月中旬,一直延續到4月,程度上雖比前年輕,但時間拖得也久。

流感季節一開始是A型流感病毒的傳染。由於這種病毒比較強悍,疫苗沒有太大作用。之後通常是B型流感病毒的傳染。但2018到2019年時,A型流感病毒不尋常地持續整個季節,根據CDC的報告,H1N1流感病毒從10月廣泛流傳到2月中,H3N2病毒接著持續到春天。

CDC估計在2018到2019年度全國有4290萬人因流感發病,64萬7000人住院,6萬1200人死亡,孩童住院情況與前年相似,但比較少死亡案例,有116個孩童因流感死亡,前年則有183人因此喪生。

民眾可接種疫苗的地方,如醫療診所、社區健康中心、藥局或標靶(Target)百貨等,如果沒有醫療保險或保險不足的人,可以到有參與UUAV計畫的(Uninsured and Underinsured Adult Vaccine, 簡稱UUAV),接受低價或免費的疫苗接種,此外也有給18歲以下的孩童低價或免費疫苗,只要尋找是否提供Minnesota Vaccines for Children即可。

禱告擴大信心的疆界

收到安的簡訊說,她的身體正在衰退中。我心裡非常緊張,揣想安到底發生了什麼事。「神啊,請你告訴我該如何為安禱告。」

十年前安曾得了腦瘤。兩年前我在聖經研習團契認識她時,她的腦瘤第二次復發,許多姊妹們為她禱告後,她恢復了原本與神疏離的關係。治療了一年,安得到醫生的許可,去年夏天得以離開美國,與在越南工作的先生團聚。今年夏天安在越南又發現腦中有新腫瘤,於是飛回美國做檢查。

再見到安時,與兩年前剛認識的她不同,她的臉上有平安的笑容。安找我和另一個姊妹蘿莉敘舊,不多話的安聆聽我們說話,不忘問我有什麼代禱事項。幾天之後神讓我想到要為安禱告,我卻因為忙碌而忽略。直到安的簡訊說她的身體正在衰退,我難過地向神呼求,「神啊,再給我一個機會為安禱告,千萬不能讓她這樣就走了。」我想到聖經說「有人攻勝孤身一人,若有兩人便能抵擋他,三股合成的繩子不容易折斷」(傳道書四章12節)。於是我找了羅莉和利亞和我一起為安禱告。利亞因為人在南美洲,承諾她會禱告。我和羅莉在電話中禱告時,羅莉有點擔心萬一神的心意是不要醫治安,所以她說如果神要把安接走,我們也要順服。但是我告訴羅莉,一年前我求問神是否會醫治安時,神給我聖經的話說:「不要怕,只要信,她必得醫治。」我告訴羅莉,除非神改變我們的想法,否則我要堅持相信這句應許,一直禱告到安得到康復為止。

我心中感動要為安禁食禱告。禱告隔天,安傳簡訊說她好多了。原來那天安彎腰拿東西時失去平衡跌倒。安一想到這可能是腦瘤惡化,她開始害怕起來。當我和羅莉在電話中禱告後,安的害怕消失了。我們才知道這害怕是來自魔鬼的攻擊,難怪神要我禁食禱告爭戰趕鬼。

一週後我們三人又約見面,這次我決定三人要一起禱告,不光是聊天。見面前我警醒禱告,因為我知道禱告就是要預備打屬靈的爭戰,不能讓魔鬼來攔阻我們。果不其然,當天羅莉說她心情不好差點要取消碰面,我說我們先來禱告吧。羅莉還一直說她覺得心情不好,不太能禱告。我說不管心情如何,就是先開口讚美。我們用媽媽禱告網(Moms in Prayer)的禱告單,先讚美「神是可親近」的屬性。當我們用經文讚美神之後,真理的光驅散羅莉心裡下沈的黑暗。我們三人受聖靈感動不斷地讚美感謝神,最後彼此代求。我們也為羅莉和先生的關係禱告,為安的先生的靈命增長禱告。

我們三人手牽著手,一起宣告神的醫治要臨到安。我們坐在戶外的咖啡廳,附近的湖面上有閃電和大雷聲,天空烏雲密佈,風雨欲來。但是我們充滿信心,沒有懼怕,因為知道神保護著我們。我問安現在除了等著照MRI,還做些什麼。安說她不知道等候檢查的日子裡可以做什麼。我心裡似乎早知道她有這個疑問。所以我告訴她,可以在家繼續為那些她在越南孤兒院照顧的孩子禱告。因為沒有孩子的安視這些孤兒如己出。我說等你回越南後,把他們帶信主,成為你屬靈的孩子。羅莉知道神可以透過我們的口彼此建造,因此在一旁仔細聆聽我說話。接著羅莉對安說:「你聽到她說的了嗎?」我健忘地問:「我說了什麼?」羅莉對安說:「她說你『回越南後』」。原來我的口已經宣告神的意思:安要回越南。於是我們又同心讚美神。

今天是安照MRI的日子,我在家裡等著,下午她傳來簡訊說:「腦瘤正在縮小,醫生同意讓她回到越南。」我喜極而泣。讚滿上帝實在是充滿恩典憐憫的天父,是我們生命中大能的主宰。

當困難臨到我們,神邀請我們來親近祂,向祂呼求,使祂在天上的心意可以透過我們的禱告執行在地上。當拉撒路病了,他的姐姐馬大和馬利亞已經盡其所能地呼求主耶穌來拯救他,但主耶穌等到拉撒路死了才來(參約翰福音十一章)。神的遲延看似祂不聽禱告,其實是神要向我們顯明祂是無所不能的神,使我們更認識、相信祂而不害怕。

當我們愈多禱告並看見神的作為,我們就更明白祂的心意都是良善的,見識到祂的大能是超過我們所求所想的。於是我們漸漸地不再只是要求神實現我們想要的渴望,而是願意承接神準備給我們更好的計畫。透過禱告看見神榮耀的經歷,會擴大我們信心的疆界,使我們能開始超越自我、時空的限制,勇敢地活出為神所用、無所畏懼、寬廣自由的生命。