明州開放電動滑板車 專家籲注意騎行安全

近年電動滑板車(e-scooter)在全美數十個大城市陸續開放,明尼蘇達州也在其中之列,根據統計,明州至今已有2000部電動滑板車提供民眾租用,不過,專家提醒,這項看似簡便易用的交通工具,已造成數起傷亡事件,尤其目前各城市法規並未明確,因此民眾使用時務必留意安全第一。

明州雙城從去年開始引進400輛電動滑板車,希望提供民眾另一項在城市移動的便利工具,並減少車流量來節能減碳,今年明尼亞波利斯市和聖保羅市向萊姆(Lime)和鳥(Bird)兩家廠商,添置了2000輛電動滑板車。

明尼亞波利斯市的統計資料顯示,去年8月到11月間,約有7萬5000人租用了電動滑板車22萬5000次,其中有三成以上從家裡出發,另有三成從工作地點出發,使用者年齡介於20到40歲。

根據萊姆網站,其電動滑板車充電一次,視路況最多可跑20哩,因應市區速限,該公司將滑板車的速度設定低於每小時14.8哩,租用金額從1元起跳,之後每分鐘0.15元,騎車範圍不限於雙城地區。

一般民眾若看到違規停放的滑板車,不應自行搬動,否則會引發警報器,撥打311電話由市政府聯絡廠商處理才是正確作法。

儘管廠商提醒使用者應戴頭盔,但使用者多半在路上因臨時起意租用,大多數多未戴頭盔,日前一名明州男子在丹佛市騎行滑板車時跌倒,即疑似沒戴頭盔而導致頭部受創昏迷。

此外,滑板車廠商也提醒使用者遵照各城市的規定,不能在人行道上騎滑板車,但今年2月在佛州藍登代爾堡市一名28歲女性,卻因遵守這項規定而在馬路上騎行時與汽車相撞重傷,還有另一名21歲來自愛爾蘭的交換學生在德州奧斯丁,也因在馬路上騎滑板車而車禍死亡。

在明尼蘇達大學統計系擔任講師的吳孟軒說,在沒有公車或腳踏車的地方,他也用滑板車代步,比騎腳踏車輕鬆、速度快,但在不平的路面卻更容易失控。

根據消費者報告(Consumer Reports)調查全美有電動滑板車租用的47個城市中的110家醫院紀錄發現,從2017年底以來有超過1500人因騎滑板車受傷,多數為頭部,以及骨折、顏面挫傷。

God Uses Hardship To Build Our Character

Moab has been at rest from youth,
like wine left on its dregs,
not poured from one jar to another—
she has not gone into exile.
So she tastes as she did,
and her aroma is unchanged. (Jeremiah 48:11)

And the firstborn bare a son, and called his name Moab: the same isthe father of the Moabites unto this day. And the younger, she also bare a son, and called his name Benammi: the same is the father of the children of Ammon unto this day.  Gen 19:37-38

The Moabite tribe is the descendant of Lot, Abraham’s cousin (refer to Genesis 19:37–38). This verse implies a spiritual meaning: a person who has easy life from youth, without having struggles, his/her temperament in his flesh is not filtered and purified. Consequently, he/she will taste and smell the same as his/her old nature.

As we believe in Jesus Christ as our Lord and the Savior, God starts removing our ungodly habits in flesh like tumors. What is in flesh? It’s opposite to in Spirit. For example, when we feel angry in flesh, we want to immediately blow it out to someone without self-control, as in some people’s old nature or habit.

Meanwhile, God gradually builds up in us the godly characters of spiritual maturity like strengthening muscles. For example, gentleness is a fruit of the Holy Spirit. With that godly character, our feeling can be supernaturally brought under God’s control even without getting angry with something used to upset us. This is freedom indeed.

For God knows His plans for you: plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). Therefore, whenever we experience the hardship, thank God for the lesson and learn from it because “we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28)”.

In the Old Testament, Jacob was born lowly by grabbing his older brother’s foot and later cheated his brother, father and later his uncle as he was cheated by him too. But in his young life, he suffered from leaving comfortable home, being pursued by his brother Esau, spending years of hardworking for his uncle, and not getting his beloved Rachel for his wife as quickly as he desired. Finally, Jacob even wrestled with the angel and then saw God face to face. God gave him a new name, Israel, because he overcame his old nature and God transformed him to be a godly man (Genesis 32:22-32). Jacob’s reverence of love to God was displayed when he worshiped God and blessed his children even on his deathbed (Genesis 49).

We see King David suffered so many trials but would still seek and trust God with all his heart. As David prayed, “I was silent; I would not open my mouth, for you are the one who has done this. That’s His love for us (Psalm 39:9)”. David was proved to be a man after God’s own heart (1 Samuel 13:14).

That’s our hope. The loving God wants to bless us as His godly children. He will transform us. He is building up His holy characters in us. Let’s humble ourselves to trust and obey God. Whenever we feel frustrated, come to God, not arrogantly complaining or comparing with other people; but be still and silent, remembering it’s God’s good plan for training us to overcome our old nature and to become His beloved children after His own heart.

暑假到…出外機會教育孩子提高警覺

今年4月在明州美國購物商場(Mall of America)發生一起五歲男孩藍登(Landen)跟著媽媽出門,卻遭疑似精神失常男子阿藍達(Emmanuel Deshawn Aranda)突然從三樓高拋下的意外事件,此不幸悲劇引起許多家長恐慌,由於暑假即將到來,帶小小孩出門的機率增加,專家提醒父母,出門前做好孩童安全意識教育有備無患。

根據「好家庭」網站(www.verywellfamily.com),列出的爸媽如何導孩子提高警覺保護自己的重點如下:

●教孩子說「不」:告訴孩子,當有人威脅或違背他意願來靠近或觸摸他時,要相信自己不喜歡或害怕的直覺,趕緊離開或大聲說「不」。

●父母不要假設孩子知道如何應變陌生狀況:歐普拉的節目(The Oprah Winfrey Show)曾經取得父母同意,到公園去對他們的孩子做實驗,結果每個孩子幾乎在35秒內,就被陌生人利誘上車。

●不要讓孩子以為陌生壞人都是長相凶惡:根據實驗,如果以「陌生壞人」的方式教導孩子,很容易使小孩輕信說話和善或看似有愛心的人,像是有人要求孩子幫忙找小狗等,如果只告訴小孩不要跟陌生人說話,這反而在他有需要時,限制他去對外尋求幫助,正確方法是告訴孩子去找店裡配有名牌的店員、穿制服的警察或是詢問台的人員求助。

●告訴孩子在公共場所時,如果父母不在身邊,不要讓任何人太過靠近他的私人領域。

●列出「可信任的大人」名單:告訴孩子除了這些人以外,不能讓其他人接他去別的地方。

●告訴孩子絕不要因威脅或利誘跟別人上車:如果有人強迫孩子離開或上車,務必要盡力呼喊救命,並高聲說「這人不是我的媽媽。這人不是我的爸爸。」

● 要給孩子信心與方法,讓他們學習如何應變:例如平時要指導孩子與父母走失時,應該要去何處求助,或是有認識的鄰居或朋友來要帶她去別處,記得先腦中過濾一下父母提供的可信任大人名單。

●找機會教育孩子臨機應變:外出時,找機會以輕鬆的態度與口吻,提醒孩子一旦遇到困難時該怎麼辦。

小型大學的優點

過完暑假,許多高中畢業生即將進入大學就讀,其中一些學生與家長,仍對選讀了學生人數不超過5000,校內無研究所的小型大學有所疑慮,事實上,就讀明尼蘇達州小型大學的華裔學生分享,師生比低,人際關係緊密,反而讓他們在這類學校如魚得水,收穫豐富。

美國大學主要分成研究型大學(research university)及小型大學(small college),或稱文理學院(liberal arts college),其中小型大學的師生比例大多低於1:10,甚至低到1:5。

根據美國新聞網站(US News)報導,與大型研究大學相比,小型大學通常更著重教授的教學品質,也因此這些大學的教授都會花更多時關注和協助學生。

來自台灣的雷慕然,目前在聖保羅市的小型大學麥克勒斯特大學(Macalester College)讀大一,她說,該校學生人數少,老師能照顧到每個學生的需要,教授們教學嚴謹、課業頗重。

相對於大學院校的課堂,有時動輒一百多人,還可能由讀博士班的助教上課,雷慕然說她的每堂課都是約20人的小班制,最多只到40人,並且均由教授上課。

她說學校還是有高年級生擔任助教,一周一次協助學生複習功課,另外因為學生少,想在課外時間找老師討論也比大型學校容易很多。

來自香港的謝穎熙,在明州另一所知名的文理學院是卡爾頓大學(Carlton College)主修經濟和聲樂,她說,師生比例低,讓她有很多機會獲得樂團老師指導;同樣就讀卡爾頓大學的王沙恬主修數學、電腦,自認到小型大學念書是正確決定,「學校小,同學關係好」,也讓獨自在異鄉求學的她多了溫暖,少了孤獨。

紀錄片「牆」 披露明州遊民困境引關注

曾出版「海外生活的學習:在中國學到的人性」一書 (Life Learned Abroad: Lessons on Humanity from China)的記者作家弗迪克(Brandon Ferdig),最新推出的紀錄片「牆」(The Wall),日前在明州首映,該影片深層披露遊民內心與困境,引起廣大觀眾重新關注這個活在陰影的族群。

弗迪克說,去年當他在明尼亞波利斯市的55號公路旁,看見數百名沿著圍牆搭帳棚的遊民後,決定採訪這群主要是美國印第安人原住民的遊民,並將他們的故事拍成紀錄片,希望大眾對遊民的需要有更多認識。

弗迪克說,人們對遊民想法各異,但他相信人類追求和平的目標是不變的,他期待觀眾可以同理心來看遊民。

影片剪輯去年6月開始的電視新聞報導,描述這個稱為「牆」的遊民聚落,在公路旁搭帳棚,該地區在短短三個月內,人數從25人增加到300人。

影片提到,市政府一開始沒有驅趕少數的遊民,當地的慈善機構還提供該處遊民流動廁所、食物等救助,使得搭棚人數激增,等到後來市府想將遊民遷離,過程卻不順利。

曾經成功把市區遊民人數降低一半的休士頓主管單位向弗迪克分享經驗表示,除了政府嚴格執法,也需尋找經費補助,並集合警力、社工等單位輔導遊民找尋住處。

弗迪克在影片中問了遊民許多問題,包括以前有工作嗎?有家人嗎?曾經有家嗎?而有些遊民早已想不起何時有過家,還有人問什麼是家?有個流浪八年的男子說,他小時候輾轉住在各個寄養家庭的痛苦經驗,導致他不喜歡所謂有人一起住的家。

有個中年男士擔任技工,餵飽自己不是問題,但是自從妻子過世後,情緒低落而無法正常生活,最後流落到該遊民區。

有對夫婦說他們的六個孩子都住在寄養家庭。他們覺得別人把他們看成「眼中釘」,夫婦原本有工作,卻以毒品逃避現實,結果失去工作和孩子。

多數遊民明顯有著無力處理的情緒問題,也不相信他人會願意提供協助,而跟其他遊民同住時,似乎才能獲得一定的支持與慰藉。

弗迪克在明州北部長大,大學原本主修心理,後來改念新聞系,目前擔任記者與自由撰稿,此外,他也創辦了www.ThePeriphery.com網站,撰寫評論與旅行紀錄。

Affirming People is Glorifying God

Sing to Him, sing praise to Him; tell of all His wonderful acts.

Glory in His holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice.

(1 Chronicles 16:9-10, NIV)

A man will be satisfied with good by the fruit of his words.

(Proverbs 12:14a, NAS)

To affirm people is from a heart of glorifying God.

It’s not nourishing pride with empty flattering, but it is putting the sincere appreciation into words to recognize a soul which is made in God’s image.

If you ask God for a mouth which speaks truth in love, you will find yourself speaking compliments and encouragement to people more than criticizing and putting down.

Therefore, the first step of glorifying God as the Creator of all human kinds is to humbling yourself and ask God’s wisdom and love for words to affirm people around you.

 

Up and down.

When the politicians talk about right or left, we forget about the up and down. Up is the God, and down are the humans.

When God creates us, He put Himself in our heart: our greatest longing is to be accepted by God. Our greatest fear is to be rejected by God.

That’s why Adam and Eve hid themselves behind the bush and covered their naked body with leaves, for they feared their rebellion was not accepted by God.

 

What is sin?

It is that this God we ought to long and fear is replaced by other idols: longing to be accepted by other people and fearing rejected by other people.

Other people, including self, become our center.

The Fall of humans brings the tragedy: there’s no God in our hearts. That is the sin we have by rejecting and forgetting all about God.

What does sin cause?

Our sin is deadly causing our shame and guilt.

We look for remedy by going to idols: religions, philosophy, fame, money, lust, drug, all kinds of desires which never quench our guilt.

Sooner or later, that unquenchable guilt ignites the fire of anger, either blowing to others or self.

We could run away from another person, from a relationship, from the society, even from our lives.

But the guilt follows us, for it’s in the self.

We could meditate on religious words and try to empty ourselves.

But the ego is still in the self because that’s the subject who meditates.

 

Pause and Pray

However,

If you pause and pray to God, you may hear His gentle voice: “Who are you?”

Are you the one who cheats on yourself and others by being someone else, just like Jacob cheated his father, Isaac, to get the blessing for his older brother Esau?

Are you trying to run for your life and not confessing your sorry to the people you offended, just like Jacob to Esau?

 

God is pursuing you.

However,

God is pursuing you.

God is coming down to meet you in the wilderness, through the ladder of the cross.

God says to you: nobody can replace you, for I give you the unique DNA.

 

Falling is not the worst, but staying on the ground.

So, getting up quickly, not bowing down in shame anymore,

To look up to the God, who lifts up your face and gets you up with His strength.

God sent Jesus to come to the world and wants to assure you:

Your shame and guilt have been completely dealt with through Jesus on the cross.

No shame. No guilt. Only love is lavished on you by this God of love.

 

Come to God. Just pray with simple faith. And He promises to come near to your heart.

Don’t lose your heart, for God’s Holy Spirit living right there with you.

被火煉過的單純信心

信心是上帝給人的禮物。但表面看似單純的信心,卻可能蘊含火煉過的深度。以下是我採訪一對來自中東的穆斯林夫婦,原本信奉名為阿拉的單一神的伊斯蘭教,並認為耶穌只是作為先知的人類。但主耶穌向他們顯現後,他們的生命就此翻轉。(為保護當事人,以下使用假名)

少年打獵奇遇
瑪斯十二歲那年暑假,借了堂哥的長槍,一個人到山區打獵。瑪斯幻想能獵隻野熊,但在渺無人煙的山上,只看見老鷹在天空飛翔。迫切想試用長槍的瑪斯,舉槍對著天上的老鷹射擊,沒打獵經驗的他未留意自己站在山崖邊。

「砰一聲」,天上的老鷹毫羽未傷,但長槍的後座力使瑪斯後退好幾步,失足趴著從沙土斜坡往下滑。瑪斯兩手抓到一塊突起的岩石,整個人便懸吊在山坡上,腳下是五百多公尺深的山谷。

五分鐘後,瑪斯兩隻手臂因血液循環不良而發冷發麻。他不敢想像有誰會來救他。但他想起信奉伊斯蘭教的母親常禱告:「神啊,幫助我。」於是絕望中的瑪斯大聲呼喊:「神啊,請幫助我!」他聽到自己的聲音在空曠的山谷中迴盪。

不久,瑪斯聽到山崖上有個聲音說:「你要我嗎?」瑪斯抬頭一看,有個男人身穿白袍,白布巾從頭上垂繞圍在脖子上。那人彎下腰來,抓住他的雙手往上提,然後把他拉到平坦的地上才放手。瑪斯站起身來想要對那人道謝時,卻不見人影,耳朵只聽見颼颼的風聲。

瑪斯帶著滿腹疑問回家。驚訝的父母問他為何全身衣服撕裂、腿上流血。瑪斯不敢說自己滑下山崖差點死掉的事,只敷衍地說他在地上滑倒。瑪斯忍耐了半年後才問母親,可蘭經裡所說的人類先知是否可能出現救人。

夜半的呼喚
廿四年後,瑪斯卅六歲,有妻子和兩個女兒。某天凌晨兩點半,窗簾外照入的強光驚醒正在睡覺的瑪斯。那光線強烈到他無法睜眼直視。他以手臂遮住眼睛,想要搞清楚那光線的來源。然後他聽見敲窗戶的聲音。

「是誰?」瑪斯問。

「我是耶穌。」窗外的聲音說。

「我朋友當中沒有叫耶穌的,所以我不能讓你進來。」瑪斯警覺地回答。

「好,那我改天再來。」強光隨著那聲音離去。

瑪斯起來叫外面的警衛搜索,但沒有發現任何可疑的人。

一週後,同樣是半夜兩點半,窗外又出現強光。瑪斯又聽見敲窗戶的聲音。

「是誰?」瑪斯問。

「我是耶穌,我想進來看你。」那聲音說。

瑪斯決定見他,於是起床想開門請他進來,卻看見那人不知何時已進到房子裡,並站在他眼前。瑪斯非常害怕,卻朦朧地想起那張臉龐。

「我認得你。」瑪斯驚叫起來。原來他就是瑪斯十二歲時遇到的救命恩神。

接下來兩週內,耶穌向瑪斯的妻子麗朵和兩個女兒顯現。麗朵說她的九歲和六歲的女兒看見時都嚇哭了。但他們全家因此都相信主耶穌就是神。

逼迫隨著相信而來
瑪斯想要更多認識主耶穌,但伊斯蘭教國家會逼迫基督教徒。瑪斯輾轉問到一個基督徒的住處。他找藉口要這個基督徒來幫他修理車子。當這基督徒爬到車子底下檢查時,瑪斯彎下腰小聲地對他說:

「你是基督徒嗎?」

「我不是。」那人因害怕而不敢承認。

「你放心,我只是想認識耶穌,我不是警察。」瑪斯向他保證。

於是這個弟兄馬上開車帶瑪斯去找一個地下教會的牧師。那牧師給瑪斯看了一張耶穌的畫像,瑪斯眼睛一亮說:「對,這就是我看到的耶穌。」原來在無法自由傳講耶穌的伊斯蘭教國家裡,許多人像瑪斯一樣,因看到耶穌的異象或夢見耶穌而信主。

瑪斯信主後,政府開始逼迫他,不但強行奪走瑪斯開的公司和醫療保險等,還數次在他的車子上動手腳要傷害他。瑪斯和妻子都愛主,也常跟家人傳福音。信主十四年後,瑪斯決定帶著妻女離開祖國。

冒險偷渡前往自由國度
瑪斯申請出國的護照遲遲沒著落,但妻女的護照都收到了。瑪斯從一個有內線消息的朋友聽到他的護照被政府扣留,可能要追殺他。於是瑪斯要妻女坐巴士越過邊境到鄰國,而瑪斯則付了一大筆錢給走私者,打算走山路過邊界。

瑪斯與其他偷渡邊境的人被分成小組,由帶槍的走私者隨行。山區裡的雪深及腰,一行人有大人和小孩。走私者彼此用無線電話聯絡,在不同地點伺機用卡車接應。當車子一到,走私者要大家迅速跳上車裡躲藏。瑪斯注意到有個叫薩多的年輕人,他因為有氣喘,走路相當吃力。瑪斯自願幫他背背包。他們出發走了幾公里後,瑪斯聽到一個聲音說:「瑪斯,回去。」

瑪斯轉頭問是否有人跟他說話。

「怎麼可能,我們連你叫什麼名字都不知道。」其他人說。

瑪斯繼續走了一會,又聽到:「瑪斯,回去。」

這時瑪斯停下腳步,決定往回走。身旁的走私者看到就對他說:

「山區裡有野狼,我們有槍可以保護你。你回去我們也不會退錢給你。」

「我的上帝要我回去。」瑪斯堅持。瑪斯轉頭時沒看到薩多,便回頭找他,找到了就一起回到出發的地點。看到薩多上氣不接下氣地喘著,瑪斯心生憐憫,於是向主禱告:

「主啊,我想要背薩多,請您給我力量。」瑪斯在薩多走不動時就背他一程。

走私者把瑪斯和薩多編到另一個八人的小組。不久瑪斯聽到走私者的無線電話裡傳來緊急呼叫:「我家裡還有太太和小孩,我要回去了。」原來是瑪斯之前那組的走私者打來說:「我們被槍手攻擊,已經有六個人死了。」瑪斯這才明白上帝要他回去的理由。

走過叢林到達鄰國邊界時,已經過了十二天。眼看自由就在鐵絲網的另一邊,但邊界上有站崗的士兵,荷槍實彈監視著叢林的一舉一動。

絕望中的禱告
「好不容易走到這裡卻過不去,怎麼辦?」一群人的心情沈到谷底。但是瑪斯沒有時間沮喪。

「我要跟我的上帝禱告。」瑪斯說著,舉起雙手,閉上眼睛開始仰望天空禱告。過了五分鐘,不知從何處飄來的濃霧籠罩著整個地區。他們伸手不見五指,於是瑪斯帶頭,每個人手牽手,從剪斷的鐵絲網下方爬過,終於脫離危險。這時,瑪斯叫著薩多的名字,卻聽不到他回答。

「我得回去找薩多。」瑪斯說。

「你瘋了嗎?要是被士兵發現怎麼辦?好不容易才過邊界,你還有妻女在等你不是嗎?」眾人七嘴八舌對瑪斯說。但上帝給瑪斯勇氣,他穿過鐵絲網回去,終於找到躺在地上的薩多。

「我想我跟不上你們了。」薩多絕望地在地上喘息著。

瑪斯拉起薩多的手,在雪地上一步一步把薩多拖過鐵絲網下方。

呼吸到自由空氣的薩多感激地對瑪斯說:「我也要信耶穌。因為隨行的穆斯林沒有一個人願意幫我,但是你和主耶穌卻救了我。」

憐憫人的上帝,不僅救了瑪斯自己的性命,還給瑪斯願意救人的心。結果不但救了薩多的肉體,並且使他從上帝得著永恆的屬靈生命。

另一方面,麗朵和兩個女兒拿著護照準備坐巴士到鄰國的某城市與先生會合。但他們在邊界被警察盤問了八小時。最後警察拿走她攜帶的所有證件、金錢和衣物,把他們趕上另一輛開往不同地點的巴士。麗朵和女兒坐了13個小時的巴士,好不容易輾轉來到一個教會朋友的住處,卻發現他們不在家。那天晚上,麗朵和兩個女兒在雨中、沒有任何遮蔽物熬過一晚。

信心如火煉過的精金
瑪斯和妻女在某個城市平安會合後,再由聯合國安置他們到該國的某地住了兩年。之後根據他們的選擇來到美國。

麗朵會說的英文有限,但是她與我分享時,不斷地高舉著手說:「耶穌非常非常的仁慈」、「我非常非常的軟弱」。瑪斯則說:「單純相信並禱告。」

基督顯現的故事,不時出現在封閉的伊斯蘭國家的信徒中;然而聽完瑪斯的見證,我覺得自己對主信心之外的支架脫落了。那支架可能是以為行善才能討神喜悅,忘了只有信心能討神喜悅(希伯來書十一章6節);或以守紀律自誇,忘了聖徒的生命不是單靠自我意志,乃靠連於聖靈(參加拉太書五章16節)。

瑪斯和麗朵的態度是:謙卑敬畏神,相信主耶穌是慈愛的神,並凡事禱告求神賜恩典力量去行。漸漸地,我們會經歷與神同工的勝利,我們的信心將如火煉過的精金,生命將如瑪斯看到的主耶穌一樣,閃耀著尊貴的光芒。

Cast your anxiety to God 把憂慮卸給神

遇到困難時,你是用放大鏡看你的問題,還是用望眼鏡,看榮耀大能的上帝呢?
下次遇到問題時,先來到上帝面前,把一切憂慮告訴祂,讓祂來告訴你,那些問題是該注意的,還是該忽略的。

「你們要將一切的憂慮卸給神,因為他顧念你們。」(彼得前書5:7)

“It’s not a big deal”. I often comfort my kid when she is panic at some trivial things.

We often magnify the problems with the magnifier, instead of seeing God’s almighty grandeur with the telescope. So, while facing the trouble, our weapon is to cast all our big or small anxiety to God and let Him tell us what we should pay attention or what we should ignore and let go.

“Cast all your anxiety upon Him, for He cares for you.” 
1 Peter 5: 7

2019 母親節 Mother’s day

上帝藉由孩子的口告訴我,他們看到我的改變。
我何等感恩能成為母親,從失敗到站起來,都是上帝的恩典。

我自己知道,孩子也看見:我的跌倒卻見證神的扶持。

只有上帝能使水變成酒,使不好的變為好,叫萬事互相效力,使愛神的人得益處。

When I thought about my regrets and mistakes, my children affirmed me with the changes they see in me.

How thankful I am to God for giving me the affirmation from my children.

Falling is not the worst, but staying on the ground.

So, get up, for God of love and power lifts you up.

message from my child

2019 Taiwan trip with spiritual lessons

April 9– Have a heart of empathy by being empathized first

Before departing to Taiwan, I hesitated to ask my Moms’ in Prayer (MIP) group to pray for my luggage to safely arrived with me to Taiwan because it seemed so trivial for prayer. However, after I shared my concern about two times of transferring at different airports, MIP sisters not only related to my worry but also were more than willing to pray for that. Their attitude of casting the burden to God through supplication quenched my anxiety. Their faith to God and care to the weak also warmly encouraged my heart.

After flying from MN to Detroit, we continued to fly to Korea for transfer. The airline counter called me up and confirmed our luggage has been safely transferred from Detroit airport. I felt God was so kind to give me a peace of mind to not worry about the luggage.

As I felt relieved, I noticed my husband, daughter and I didn’t sit together on the plane. The airline staff told me it’s ok to ask other passengers to switch the seats by ourselves. I prayed that someone would be willing. After we got on the airplane, my daughter’s seat was between two big men. She was so tiny and looked like being squeezed. I was on the right side of the plane with two other ladies by my side. My husband was on the other side with two other men by his side. I asked the man next to my daughter if he was ok to switch with me but he preferred the aisle seat. Then I asked the lady close to the window side but she didn’t like to sit between two men either.

My heart was a little bit down for thinking that my daughter would be alone for 13 hours with two strangers. I prayed to God. My husband waited for the passenger next to his seat to come and then asked him. The man sitting next to the window said that he can relate to our feeling because the same thing happened to his daughter too. He was kind to switch with my husband. So, I got to sit with my daughter but my husband went to sit with two ladies by his side.

I feel God wants me to empathize people by having me experienced being empathized first.

April 11–Get rid of ego by thinking about emptying ego?

We flew from Taipei to Peng-Hu island, my husband’s hometown. His family welcomed us with a big plate of crabs, which I thought about eating just before coming to Taiwan. God is so kind to fill my heart with joy before my asking.

Crab

I shared a true story about a Muslim couple who saw Jesus and converted to Christianity with my husband’s big sister. As a Buddhist, she was polite to listen but didn’t feel much interested. At lunch time, my husband’s older brother and his wife joined us. It’s not the first time we shared gospel with them. To my surprise, the couple mentioned their experiences similar to Christianity, like feeling peaceful or touched by reading the Buddhist scripture; or feeling their characters have been more mature after practicing their belief. Instead of preaching the gospel to them, I decided to ask them questions to understand their belief. The more I listened to them, I was convinced that Satan is telling them many lies.

Satan acts like a bad translator, adding many ambiguous ideas to the original plan created by God. They are caught with the lies so that they cannot see the truth. They are fooled by the appearance of the fool’s gold because they have no truth to identify the real gold.

In their belief, there’s no loving Father to restore the relationship with them, no assurance of going to heaven and no absolute truth to follow, but only self-reliance to try to be perfect. One of their confusion is that their ego is the center of their universe because they believe they can emit positive energy from their ego to change the situation; meanwhile, they often try to empty their ego to gain pure hearts. In my opinion, constantly thinking about emptying ego might be another trap of being egoistic. 

We could meditate on religious words and try to emptying ourselves. But the ego is still in the self because that’s the subject who meditates.
Old Ally in Peng-Hu

 

Cactus flower sorbet in Peng-Hu

April 13—Fight against the lies in Buddhism

We flew for 20 minutes to my hometown at Kaoshiung in southern Taiwan around noon. After being welcomed by my family, I set out to meet my high school classmate, Mei. I haven’t seen her for 30 years after graduation. But I learned about her survival of breast cancer last summer when I met with my other two high school classmates. That’s why I contacted her this time.

Her face looks the same as before but just becomes a little bit chubby. She rode a little motorcycle and decided to bring me to her house. When I went into the living room, a big table with the female Buddha image occupies one side of the room. I know there would be a battle.

I asked her about her life these years and she was very open to share. I also shared about my deliverance experience by God. I spent some time to go through the main things in Christianity using BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) booklet. With the knowledge about Buddhism I learned from my husband’s brother, I directly pointed out the myths in Buddhism.  

For example, Buddhism doesn’t tell people when they can be delivered to heaven—the world of extreme joy in their term; even no assurance after going through the six or seven rounds of reincarnation. However, Jesus Christ can deliver us from darkness to light, death to life once we believe in Him, who was sent by God to die for our sins and to resurrect from the death for our righteousness. I continue to tell her that our God is the heavenly Father, who is willing to suffer for His children, just like any earthly good parents would do. And that’s why God sent Jesus Christ, His only Son to bring heaven and salvation to us, which displays His great love.

I also mentioned about the power of Jesus Christ’s name, authority of prayer and the meaning of baptism. Finally, I emphasized on the credibility of Bible, which was written by more than 40 authors across the history of thousands of years. Taking myself working as a reporter as an example, I could have been easily make fake news if I was the only one who reported about a certain event. I learned that Buddha contemplated his thought and then one apprentice wrote it down. In my opinion, as far as Buddhism teaching is concerned, it’s from a personal philosophy and cannot represent the universal truth, which is like one plus one always equals two.

Mei cannot deny what I said. So I told her that if she cannot reject the truth, she can consider to accept the truth. Therefore, I asked her to pray the prayer on BSF booklet to confess her sin and acknowledge Jesus Christ. At that moment, Mei seemed to want to open her mouth to say the prayer, but she paused as something choked her from the chest. She looked at me and said she cannot pray. “It’s ok. Let me pray for you first.” I said. So I bound the evil spirit of rejecting God’s truth and released her spirit in Jesus Christ’s name as Jesus Christ taught in the Bible (Mark 3:27, Matthew 18:18).

Then Mei said the prayer on the BSF booklet. Just then, her husband woke up from the nap and got ready to go out to pick up their child from the school. She told me that her husband has been ill for more than ten years. In the end of our meeting, I prayed for her and her husband.

After two days, Mei texted me that she cannot leave Buddhism because Buddha helped her in the past. I told her that it’s ok and just let me know if she needs my prayer in the future.

In the beginning of our conversation, Mei told me that her parents didn’t die in peace and her older brother passed away before turning 50 years old. The continuous sadness overwhelmed her and then she was diagnosed with breast cancer. However, when she asked Buddha about her brother’s early death, she was told that it’s good for him to go to reincarnation and got out of this bitter life as soon as possible.

I feel compassionate for Mei and trust that God’s seed of life is planted somewhere in her heart. May God tear down the thorn choking her heart and bring forth that seed to life someday.

After coming back to USA, I sensed that there’s a spirit of fear in Mei and that’s why she doesn’t dare to leave Buddhism. I searched online and learned that Buddhism considered that gods and ghosts alike should be avoided. So I sent a message to Mei, informing her that our God is not the evil god mentioned in Buddhism; instead, our God is the Creator, who gives her life.

Pray for a lady with fear of eating meat

After Mei rode her motorcycle to bring me to the closest subway station, I rushed to the next stop to take the high speed train with my husband to go to Cha-Yi city to meet another couple.

Zhen and her husband received Jesus as their Savior when we visited them and shared gospel with them in our trip to Taiwan last summer. My husband strongly believed that Zhen’s husband will play an important role to pray for his wife’s healing. Zhen has been suffering with strange illness that no doctors really can find out the root problems. So we scheduled tonight to visit them again and wanted to encourage Zhen’s husband Chin. They kindly treated us dinner and Chin did open up more to share his childhood stories.

My husband found opportunity to share the story about Jesus (refer to John 6:21) who walked on the water toward the disciples. And the Bible said that when the disciples were willing to take him into the boat, and immediately the boat reached the shore where they were heading. My husband encouraged Chin to have faith on Jesus, who can heal his wife and bring them through the roaring water to the safe shore.

While we were still eating, Zhen mentioned that why she could not eat meat but seafood. She recalled that when she was in school age, one day she saw a man riding on a bike, carrying a bleeding pig which was cut into half on the back seat. The dripping blood left such a dramatic impact in Zhen’s heart. When she arrived home, she told her mom that she decided that she would never eat pork.

Zhen gradually stops eating beef and other meat except fish. I recalled that disgusting feeling in my stomach when I ate beef in my husband’s home days ago. I wonder if there’s a spirit of disgusting meat in my mother-in-law’s house because she often fasts from eating meat due to her Buddhist practice.

Zhen recently moved to another town with her husband. And the nearby market makes pork sausage in the early morning. Zhen feels extremely disgusted with the smell. I know she needs to be delivered from the spirit of fear which got into her when she saw that bleeding dead pig as a child. However, we almost missed our train to go back to Kaoshiung. So my husband and I quickly prayed for her in the train station. I continue to pray that God will deliver her soon.

A boat without an anchor would be shipwrecked in the storm.

While listening to my husband sharing about Jesus’ disciples taking Him into their boat and they immediately reached the shore, I see there is a big contrast with the Buddhist teaching. My husband’s brother’s wife said that Buddhism is a tool like a boat to deliver people from this life to the other shore of heaven.

However, she also said this tool will disappear one day according to the Buddhist scripture. What a tragedy. If the boat would sink one day, and no one could be assured to get to the other shore due to going through unknown rounds of incarnation depending on your good behavior, doesn’t it imply that people on this boat would very possibly perish in the end? Isn’t that an important question to ask before getting on this hopeless boat of human religions?

On the contrary, our Savior, Jesus, is the anchor of our boat. In the midst of storm, when we take Him to our boat, He will hold us tight until the storm passes and we will find ourselves immediately reach the shore of peace.

April 14–Endure the hardship

Job’s suffering, Sunday’s sermon

The sermon this Sunday was about Job in the bible, who suffered from losing possession, children, and health.

Job endured the heavy pain to the degree of hating his life and wished he was never born. God didn’t tell Job why all the troubles happened to him. It could be that knowing the reason for the rational mind doesn’t necessarily give the sweet spiritual understanding about His love. In the end, the Sovereign God, the mighty Creator of the universe came down to meet Job face to face.

As Job got to hear God’s loving voice, Job’s eyes saw the radiant God (Job 42:5). In the presence of the awesome God, Job might felt so foolish that he considered himself to be qualified to ask God to explain Himself.

Besides, we don’t need to explain why people suffer on behalf of God. However, we learn the precious lesson from Job’s experience: our God is loving and faithful and worthy of our trust. He is the anchor of our boat waving in the roaring sea. When we fix our eyes on Him and trust His presence commands the victory for us in the spiritual war, we will not run away or retreat from the battle line; instead, we become strong to embrace the hardship for knowing it will bring us great reward. Just like Job,  “Lord made him prosperous again and gave him twice as much as he had before.” (Job 42:10), we will reap spiritual blessing with songs of joy by sowing the seed with tears (Psalm 126:5).

Our reward after the hardship is not only in this life, but lasts to eternal life. As Jesus promises to those who believe in Him will live and will never die. (refer to John 11:25-26) Therefore, remember to praise God and thank God, as God’s will for us, is the powerful weapon to fight against despair and anxiety. And trusting God’s righteousness and love shall not open the door for Satan to deceive us to give up on ourselves.

How to develop the endurance for the hardship?

The Bible teaches us the secret of the victorious saints who “triumphed over the devil by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.” (Revelation 12:11) Therefore, let’s open our mouths to proclaim that Jesus’ blood which covers us and our testimony to the gospel , along with a free will of crucifying our old-self to die with Jesus.

Shared gospel with a young couple

After church and Hakka-flavor lunch, we went to a French pastry cafe to meet a couple who finished graduate school in U of Minnesota and moved back to Taiwan for living close to their family. We asked about their work and life as a newlywed.

Then my husband and I respectively shared gospel with the young husband David and his wife Judy. Judy told me that her grandmother was a Catholic and asked me if a Christian can worship ancestors.  It’s a pity that the cafe was too busy to allow us to sit longer. So the couple gave us a ride and we prayed for them in the car before saying goodbye. May God continue to grow the seed of gospel in their hearts.

April 15–Jesus never says no to the humble who come to Him. It’s my job to ask God for help. It’s God’s job to answer in His best will for me.

We took high speed train to Taipei for about 1.5 hours compared with the greyhound bus with 4 hours. My husband spent five days in Taipei for a meeting with a group of Taiwanese Americans from USA, sponsored by Taiwanese government.

I read Psalm 130:5, 7-8 this morning:

“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in the word I put my hope.”

“Put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with Him is full redemption. He Himself will redeem Israel (you) from all your sins.”

My husband shared the familiar Bible verses with me from Luke 11:5-8 and Luke 18:1-7 about perseverance in prayer. His divine insight is that Zhen’s husband will play an important role to pray for his sick wife’s healing.

But the Holy Spirit uses the verses to encourage me: Jesus never says no to the people who come to plead with Him. Jesus told his disciples two stories: the hesitant man who wakes up in the midnight to respond to his friend’s audacious knocking on the door; and the unjust judge who finally avenged for the persistent widow. What is Jesus’ point?

He wants to assure us one thing: Jesus is much kinder and nicer than those earthly people who are not perfect but still give help. Therefore, come to God with humility to ask for help. I am also reminded by Nehemiah who worked with one hand and held a weapon with the other (refer to Nehemiah 4:17). I want to pray and write for building the wall of kingdom, instead of listening to enemies and feeling despair by their threatening lies.

Moreover, our persistent prayer might be God’s way to refine and test our faith because God always works everything for good to those who love Him (refer to Romans 8:28). Therefore, my job with a given privilege as God’s child is to submit to God’s way and pray in His will. And it’s God’s job to consider my welfare and complete His work of my faith and others’.

April 16–Enter God’s holy place by His grace, not by my work in flesh.

My daughter helped me with direction on the map as I told her the Chinese names on the sign. We walked out of the subway station, through narrow allies, being squeezed to wait for taxi passing by our side, finally came to the bookstore I read on the magazine.

The bookstore is open on the top (2nd) floor in one of the array of antique houses. There is a flower-carved iron casement door with right-side door open halfway in the first floor, leading up to the store with narrow stairs. I looked at the open space in the doorway and thought: is this place only for people who are thin enough to get in?

Books cafe in Taipei

While I was thinking it’s hard for my trunk to pass through, my daughter pushed the left-side of the door and open up bigger entrance. How embarrassed I felt and laughed to myself.

However, isn’t that Christians often think about themselves: I am not good enough, hard-working enough, or faithful enough, etc. to enter God’s holy place. Until we push the door of grace, probably getting some help from other saints, we learn that we can come to God with confidence, setting aside all the self-judging rules, but only with confession of my weakness and desire to come to Him.

April 17–Plant the seed of gospel to a couple

The buffet style breakfast in the historic and inexpensive Howard Hotel is beyond my imagination. I got to eat everything only in my memory: steam meat bun, salty white carrot cake, fresh guava and starfruit, etc.  I noticed the restaurant prepares the grapes by cutting each one from the stem to wash it thoroughly. No wonder this hotel has good reputation for its restaurants.

Howard Hotel in Taipei

After breakfast, my daughter and I set out to the 105-year-old Taipei Zoo. The admission ticket costs only $2. My daughter was excited to see pandas, red panda, otters, penguins, even elephants for the first time, and many other creatures.

Panda in Taipei Zoo
Elephants in Taipei Zoo
Penguins in Taipei Zoo

There’s a gondola transporting visitors up to the mountain called Mao-Kong where grows tea plants. We got to the top of the mountain and were surprised with several food stands and cafes.

Gondola in Mao-Kong
Mao Kong view
Gondola stations

My daughter asked for a tea-flavored ice cream with a cat-shape cookie made of green tea on the top. Why cat-shape cookie? It’s because Mao-Kong is written with two Chinese characters: “cat (Mao)” and “empty (Kong)”. The name of this place derives from the pothole topography, which the local people describe it as “many small holes” in Taiwanese, which sounds similar to “cat empty” in Mandarin Chinese.

Pothole topography in Mao-Kong
Light Oolong-tea flavored ice cream

My daughter and I skipped the restaurants with tea-flavored dishes but went to the food stands for enjoying small delicacy like oyster-egg pancake, steam rice topped with braised pork, and stinky fried tofu. I was also excited to find the sugar-coated plum on the stick, my childhood snack, and proudly introduced it to my daughter as I often told her about it. She loves it!

Sugar-coated plum on a stick

Tonight we met a couple and their 11-year-old son in the Brothers’ Hotel for dim-sum. They moved back from MN to Taiwan around 13 years ago. In the busy restaurant, we chatted to catch up the years we missed each other. Later at night, only two tables of guests remained in the restaurant and the surrounding became quiet, I noticed we have started to share gospel with them. The husband listened quietly with interest. We believed the seed of truth has been planted that night and we prayed to God for leading them out of fear and into the confidence in Jesus in His time.

I arranged to meet a young lady as my son’s age. She is my college classmate’s daughter. I felt compassionate for her when I know her parents divorced while she was little. She is a well-behaved lady and wants to please her parents by doing her best. I prayed for her and told her to seek the true God when she wants to know the meaning of her life.

April 18–Earthquake. Shine your little light to the world.

After shopping in the department store, my daughter and I went into the subway station and planned to visit a cat cafe. Before getting on the subway, the security guards asked people to leave the underground station immediately. I was puzzled until I received my husband’s text: are you ok?

From the broadcast, I learned that a magnitude 6 earthquake just happened. The epicenter was in Hualien in Eastern Taiwan, where I visited last summer. The magnitude 4 aftershock rippled to Taipei basin, as the biggest one in the recent ten years. There were totally 17 people hit by falling objects and a few cracking in an old building in Taipei. I felt the protection of God through prayer.

I recalled that on September 21, 1999, the earthquake in Taiwan caused more than two thousands people’ death. I was in Taipei and felt the strong shaking on the 4th floor. On September 11, 2001, the terrorists hijacked the airplane to crash into the Twin Towers in New York City. I was notified  to pick up my preschooler from school in upper Manhattan.

I remember that I was confused while rushing to the school. Both times, I was kept safe with the presence of God, my Prince of Peace. What a precious gift for Christians to entrust our lives in the almighty God’s hand when the unexpected crisis hit.

It’s close to lunch time. We walked a little distance from the station and chose a ramen restaurant.

Ramen shop

The staff kindly helped us order from the vending machine outside of the store for printing out meal ticket (this is also common in ramen shop in Japan). Since I was not hungry, I asked if I can just order one meal. The staff smiled and said yes.

While sitting in the restaurant, I tried to figure out the bus route to go to the cat cafe because I only know the way by subway. After two hours, the staff said the subway station was reopened so we went back to take the subway to go to the cat cafe for the afternoon tea.

Cat cafe in Taipei

At night, we visited the night market with my parents who came to Taipei from other city about 1.5 hour driving away. We tried a few small snacks and felt satisfied.

 

Ning-Xia Night Market
Rose garden in Hsiang-Shan, Hsin-Chu city
Yang Ming Mt with Calla Lily field
Calla Lily

After leaving the night market, I wanted to visit Da-An Forest Park in the city near the hotel I stayed because the website says there’s fireflies in the park.

We finally found parking place and walked into the park. Many people came to jog or exercise. I looked carefully but could not find any fireflies. How can such a busy city have fireflies? My dad asked a local residence feeding street cats in the park. She told us that there’s a little creek around the corner, where the fireflies are restored. We went there and searched.

While I bent down to look for the firefly, I saw one little light shining in the far distance. To my surprise, this firefly was not just blinking its light, but energetically emitting light as best as it can.

I was not only thankful for God to satisfy me by showing me this “only one” firefly but also inspired by His message: shine your light in the world. No matter how little you consider your light is, it’s visible even from far distance with one condition: darkness. I was greatly encouraged and asked God to give me this energetic motivation to shine forth His light through me to the dark world.

Da-An forest park, photo credit by TaipeiTravel

April 21–Choose the tree of life. Share gospel in the college class reunion.

The Easter Sunday sermon in Taipei’s church focused on Isaiah 53:3-8 about God has laid on Jesus the iniquity of us all. The pastor defines the death in a human: A person judges self and God by his/her self-centered knowledge.

When Eve and Adam chose to eat the fruit for having knowledge like God, their rebellious hearts were against having God’s way of life. As a result, they separated themselves from God, which is death, spiritually and then physically.

If the time could have been reversed, if Eve would have chosen to refuse eating the fruit from the tree of knowledge but chosen to eat the fruit from the tree of life, her eyes would have been enlightened to discern Satan’s lie. However, after the fall, as Adam and Eve’s descendants, humans were born as blind and naturally they cannot feel the joy of having spiritual eyesight.

I once interviewed a blind man from Taiwan, who came to USA to compete in the blind baseball game. He said that people often feel pity for him to be born blind but he said that he actually doesn’t feel that bad because he never knows what it feels like to be able to see.

That’s the condition of unbelievers who don’t know how much they miss the restored joy with their Creator and Heavenly Father. I feel great compassion to them by recalling my own spiritual blindness when I didn’t know the true God.

Hostel in Taipei we stayed. We love it.

After the church service, the brothers and sisters pray for us because we would host a reunion for our college classmates this afternoon.

We arrived at the event location earlier and met one of our college classmates, who received Jesus as her Savior a few years ago. She was kind to come to pray with us. She told me that she visits different churches these years and observes there are different focuses on doctrines in each church like emphasizing on truth teaching, God is love, and spiritual power of the Holy Spirit.

I agree that her observation reveals the reality of the churches nowadays. I personally stay in the same church for more than ten years. But my personal spiritual journey, guided by the best Teacher, the Holy Spirit, went through from doctrines about truth teaching, spiritual power experienced in the deliverance ministry, and then God is love through my personal encounter with God.

Therefore, I appreciate all the stages God leads me through because I learn more about God in each stage. In my opinion, if there’s a completely perfect church, it may include all of these three elements: God’s word, God’s love and God’s power.

My college in Hsin-Chu city

Emotional burden breaks out to depression and physical illness.

In the college class reunion, 20 people came and each of our classmates shared about their lives. One man said two of his co-workers have died of overwork. He felt the urgency to come to meet his friends in college in case it’s too late. Several men shared the fun memory in college and brought laughter to everyone.

Three of our classmates who came to the reunion are Christians. One of them shared honestly about his journey of being rebellious to parents, hard time of getting a child, and the cancer treatment for his wife, who suddenly died of acute leukemia within one day. These hardship brought him to know God.

The last classmate shared his personality and frustration along the young years. His past emotional burden finally caused depression and physical dysfunction. After long time of treatment, he pursues Chinese herbal medicine and he agrees that most of illness is rooted in mental and emotional issues as I told him that the joyful heart is the good medicine mentioned in the Bible. He said he felt not belonging when he goes to the church. We hope to continue to pray for him and may God grant him peace for his soul.

Mailboxes in Taipei bent by Typhoon in 2015. Near the hostel we stayed.
Hsin-Den city

April 23–Every day is a good day. Teaching is another way of learning.

“On a rainy day, listen to the rain with your whole being.

On a snowing day, gaze at the snow.

In summer, feel its heat.

In winter, feel its coldness.

Every day is a good day.”

The poem is from the Japanese movie I watched on the airplane, called “Every day is a good day.”

Japanese movie: Every day is a good day.

The main theme is living at the moment. The story is about a young lady who doesn’t have particular direction to pursue for her life. One day, she was asked to go to the class for traditional Japanese tea ceremony (Sado) by her older sister.

After a few years of learning Sado, she gradually appreciated more about it. The teacher often asks the young lady to observe from the painting, calligraphy or nature. More than ten years passed by, she grew mature with patience and confidence. The aging teacher finally told her to consider to teach Sado to others because teaching is another way of learning.

The Chinese idiom, “Teaching and learning grows together.” conveys the same idea. My spiritual journey is like this lady learning Sado. In the beginning, I was immature and impatient. I often worried if I was a good Christian and tried in my flesh to obey God’s commands but felt more frustrated. However, God’s mercy is new each morning. God reminds me:

“Some things are quickly understood. Other things take time to understand. The things are easily understood only need to go through once. But those other things, you can only understand them little by little through time.” said in the movie.

I am thankful that God gives me time to learn those things which are hard to understand, little by little, day after day, season after season, over and over again. Then one day, I find that I move on to another stage of life to learn more about God by serving others to know Him.

Cherry blossom in Ueno park, Tokyo
Asakusa, Tokyo

Read God’s love letters every morning.

Talking about learning spiritual lessons over and over again, another Japanese movie called “The 50th first kisses” serves a good metaphor to describe my spiritual struggle.

Japanese movie: the 50th first kiss

After a terrible car accident, the female protagonist suffers the brain injury and only can remember things on that day and then forgets all about it after waking up the next day. The male protagonist falls in love with her but cannot gain her trust to love him because she forgets all about him the next day.

After pursuing her for a long time, the man found a solution to remind her who he is by recording a DVD to show her each morning. In the video, he tells her who he is, what he knows about her, how much he loves her, etc. Finally, the lady trusts him enough to let him kiss her and she always shouts, “The first kiss is amazing” day after day.

I feel I also have “short term memory loss” in my spiritual learning. For example, I have been organizing the summer camp for five years now. But every year I feel uncertain about many things from inviting the teacher, searching for the location, to finding students, etc.

It seems that I didn’t remember how God always provides and comes through for me and I always feel so joyful during the camp and never regrets to do it after the camp. But the degree of being panic is getting less over the years like this female protagonist.

In the movie, the female protagonist keeps a diary about her lover so that she wants to break up with the man for supporting him to go after his own dream in another place. She rejects him by burning up the diary she keeps about him. However, after they break up, she sees his face in her dreams at night. Then she paints his face on the canvas day after day.

I am wondering: when humans reject God, their conscience still remind them about their Creator. That’s why they create religions to worship gods. However, this loving God pursues us patiently and give us His love letters in the Bible to remind us who He is, how much He loves us and what He knows about us.

Each morning, I love to come to read His loving words and fall in love with Him again. Even though I might have short term spiritual memory loss, thank God for His loving letters written in the Bible and in my heart through the Holy Spirit.

The movie has a happy ending.

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